Confused, alone and needing someone

Im in a bad place but I dont really know why. I feel like theres no reason I should feel like this but then i feel like i have a right to feel like this. Its so ****ing confusing. I feel pathetic. I havnt cut in at least 1 or 2months and i wanted to start grade 11 with a clean slate for the whole year. I just dont know anymore my mood are spastic and its litterally mentally and physically exhausting.

Im sick and tired of my mother and i still have almost 3 weeks before i move in woth my dad. Its too ****ing long. I cant deal with her ******** for even one mre day. I just dont know what I can do anymore. She comes into my room like she owns the ****ing place and goes through all my ****.

AHHHHHHHHHHH I have no privacy, I have no space for myself. AND I ****ING HATE HER. Its not just a thing i say when Im mad at her ive been saying i hate her for at least 2 years now. Her face, her voice, her personality, I HATE EVERY ABOUT HER> I have no tolerance for her anymore and I wanna puch her in the ****ing face. AHHHHHHHHH

And as u saw in my righting I went from sad and crying to wanting to punch thatb ***** called my mother in the ****ing face. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Im so ****ing irritable right now............

I'm sorry you are feeling this way Brennan11007. I think at times a mood when there is no "reason" for it is more distressing then when you can say I'm depressed because of XYZ. Are you seeing a mental health professional? I hope you start feeling better soon.

Hate is a strong word, do you feel she is she the reason for everything wrong in your life or do you hate her for giving birth to you?

I don't think it's very mature to want to punch your mother in the face...

I still do and have wanted to puch her for a looong time. I see a SW every 2 weeks but I havn't seen her in almost 3 months. I hate the fact that I had to born be from her and everything that has gone wrong in my life IS her fault. I wish she had never had me. I wish I was born from another woman. Or just never born in general.....

i read your post about moving in with your dad, too. remember, when you leave and move in with your dad, you're taking yourself with you. it really doen't matter who gave birth to you. that's a moot point. your self perception of yourself and others can be your salvation or if you choose you will just carry your problems with you. hummmm.