[Roza Victoria]

i feel like i'm losing it...i'm about to lose my mind....i sit here and cry and dont know what to do....everything is caving in....its like i'm never happy....i dont want to be bothered....everything gets to me....my husband tells me to snap out of it...but i wish he could tell me how...i need help...i need to find a way, for me and for my kids....anxiety takes over and i turn into a lunatic....depression holds me down, cant get anything done....my emotions are all over the place and i cant control them....i feel like my head and heart are going to explode....no one listens....no one really knows how i feel....they dont hear me...they dont get the severity....i'm trying to reach out to people but no one really seems to see what i am going through....i have helped people and been there, i've taken care of people...but no one takes care of me....what am i going to do if i lose it? what happens to my kids? i feel like i'm hurting them now b/c i am not the same mom i used to be...i know they are suffering and i suffer b/x i know i am causing them harm....

someone please tell me something.....

[justfloating]

(((((((((Roza Victoria))))))))))

Depression is a highly debilitating illness, but you're not alone in your pain. It's great that you're here at PC, reaching out to others who have experienced or are currently experiencing the same thing. I know how frustrating it is when others tell us to "snap otu of it" or "just think happy thoughts." You're right, they don't get it, they have no idea that they may as well be asking us to flap our arms and fly. But there IS help out there. Are you on any kind of medication or have you seen a doctor about the way you're feeling? What about talking to a therapist? Depression is a terrible illness to have but it's also a highly treatable one. Don't give up hope, there are all kinds of resources out there! Please keep us posted on how you're doing.

[Roza Victoria]

I've seen two people who basically bounced me back and forth. They mentioned to me about coming back and putting me on medication...I was supposed to go back this past Tuesday but rescheduled...I must admit that I am kind of scared of medication...but in the end if it is the only option left I will do it....

Whenever I talk to my husband he takes everything so personal and does not listen to me. He makes everything about him. I spoke to him last night b/c I broke down during the day and he started telling me how it makes him feel and what I am doing to him and how my negativity is driving him crazy! He went on and on about him and I told him that I need him to listen and be there for me and not talk about him for once. I am always there for him but it seems impossible for him to be there for me. I have to get to the extreme before he shows any empathy. And even then it is short lived. I'm so stressed out I don't know what to do. I contacted a therapist and I am working on setting something up.