[dexter]

A friend drove me to the repo office this morning to get the stuff out of my car. It was very stressful. I came home and went right back to bed.

I also found out they are not going to turn my phone back on, so I have no way to contact my doctor. Only have email right now.

Some friends from out of town were in touch and they called the local (local to me) mental health agency and they are going to send some people out to evaluate me. I don't know if that is going to mean a trip to the hospital or not. I am anxious about it but looking forward to talking to someone professional.

Right now I am just an anxious mess.

Anxious and still very very scared.

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((dexter)))))))))))))))))) i'm sure you are. i'm so sorry that it's hard right now. it sounds like you have some great friends who care for you very much.

hoping nothing but good for you right now,

kd

[Fuzzybear]

Thinking strong thoughts for you friend ((((((((((((((dex)))))))))))))))))))))))))

[darkeyes]

(((((((((((( dexter )))))))))))))))))



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[dottie]

Hi Dex.

I know that this is a desperate time for you. Thank goodness you have some friends who care.

I know of someone who was in the same position you r in. Everything was so bleak for him...but with some help from friends he has made it back. Has a wonderful job...and even has started a part-time job as a Disc Jockey in his off hours. He is in high demand.

Hang in there. It WILL get better for you. You just have to believe that.

~Dottie

[jbug]

I hope things go better for you soon. ((((((((((Dex)))))))))

Jbug

thinking of you dexter......hang in there.....

((((((((((Dexter)))))))))))))
Hang in there!

[BlueFaith]

(((((((((((dexter))))))))) Yes, it does sound like you have good friends. I am happy that you have caring people in your life. Now is when you need them most, right? I'm also sending positive vibes your way! Take care.

-Jennifer-

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((Dex)))))))))))))))))

Your fortunate to have such caring friends. Please hang in there. Thinking of you

[dexter]

The hospital workers came over this evening.

We talked about hospital. Good news: if I do go into the hospital, I should be able to go back to the Pride unit in Summit where I was last time. I think that program was good for me.

They offered another alternative, a new program in NJ where they send someone to your house to try to keep you out of the hospital. They are going to try to set me up with that, if they can get someone over here by Monday. If they can't they want me to go into the hospital.

I felt very relieved when they were here to finally have some options.

Now I am back to nervous, stressed out, and very scared... but I think that's just the depression. I am worried about my job... can't simply say "don't think about that, get your depression under control" because if the job gets messed up I'll be in even worse shape with my bills which is what is stressing me out the most and aggravating my depression the most right now. Vicious cycle.

Hoping I can just sleep tonight and get through the weekend without worrying about it too much.

[Nerak]

(((((((((((((Dex)))))))))))) you are in my thoughts.

[Yack]

((((((((Dexter)))))))))))

I hope all works out for you today with the hospital visit....

You have always been here for me and I am sending you hugs*******