[seriouslycrazy]

Hi. I'm new.

I've been suffering for over 20 years from depression. Since I was 13 I've had several therapists, many meds, a couple diagnosies, and one psych related hospital stay. I feel worse as time goes on. I'm starting to fear that I may never feel any better. I've given up hope on being "cured". I don't know what else to do. Any advice, comments, or suggestions would be appreciated.

[Elana05]

(((seriouslycrazy)))

I wish I knew just the right thing to say... But I can say I hear you. Sending supportive thoughts your way. You deserve to feel better. Hang in there with the meds and therapy. Have you ever looked into the new treatment that is similar to an MRI... I think its called TMS.

Hi & welcome to PC. I can relate to how you feel.I was depressed for decades and misdiagnosed with depression by a GP. Never saw a psych doc.Took many different anti-dep. which just made me worse. I finally did research on my own and it was very clear that I was bipolar.Now on the right meds & doing well. There are quizzes on this website that you may find helpful. This is a great website to share,find support,frienship and knowledge.. I hope you find it as helpful as I have.

[ayana95]

Originally Posted by seriouslycrazy

Hi. I'm new.

I've been suffering for over 20 years from depression. Since I was 13 I've had several therapists, many meds, a couple diagnosies, and one psych related hospital stay. I feel worse as time goes on. I'm starting to fear that I may never feel any better. I've given up hope on being "cured". I don't know what else to do. Any advice, comments, or suggestions would be appreciated.

I first expressed that I was depressed when I was 13. I went to my guidance counselor and told her I wanted to kill myself. I started therapy with a LCSW. That was 22 years ago. I was almost hospitalized at 17. My dad put a stop to it and instead took me to a spirtual advisor. My parents had no choice but to send me to out patient treatment with a psycotherapist. In 2000 I sought treatment again. It was the first time I was put on meds.

It's an ongoing struggle for me. Maybe because I didn't have the proper DX. There are so many things I wish I could do differently.
I was hospitalized twice last year. I check myslf in once and my fiance made me go once. I spend about 2 weeks each time.

I do a lot to stay out of the hospital. I have to go to the psychatrist every 4-6 week, see a nurse, go to individual and group therapy (DBT). I also get home visits from a counseling service.

[Lilleth]

I am in the same place been like this all my life its getting worse as I get older I am in my 50s. I am in theraphy at the moment dont know if its helping all I know is that if there is a cure I cant find it. I go from day to day praying that one day I will wake up and feel better but am losing all hope.

[whenwillitend]

I can relate. I've been told that I'll be on medication for the rest of my life. There's no cure for me.
It's very depressing to think about.

[SophiaG]

I hope for your sake that you just haven't found the right treatment for yourself.

It is in the very nature of depression to make you want to lose hope, don't buy into your disease.

[cherrygash321]

I Completely understand you! I've had ongoing depression for years. At times I struggle with the going on part, not in the ending life part, but the not giving a damn anymore part. What's the use? Hope is drained from you heart when you have depression. There's no easy fix. I've told my friend many times I'd rather have some physical problem instead of this.

I don't have a lot to offer right now as Im going through a rough time myself. Only that you are not alone in this feeling, thinking. I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time, wish I could offer more. cG

[Kiffygirl0793]

Unfortunately there is no cure, but thank goodness we have medication. Hundreds of years ago, we'd just be locked up.

[Mustkeepjob32]

At this point in my life, I don't expect to be "cured" from depression; I just want to be able to live my life, smile, be close with family, hold down a job, pay some bills, and maybe get an Ipod Touch 32gb 4th generation.

Z

[j.raging1]

Just reading the posts has made me cry like an infant. All of you with family who care and love you, who are there for you are so blessed. My daughter just recently decided because of my 'incidents' (her term) that I can no longer see my only grand-daughter who is one year old. I am on a new med and face the holidays totally alone and hopeless. Why go on?

[seriouslycrazy]

Thank you. I've never heard of TMS. I'll try anything if there's a chance to feel better.

[seriouslycrazy]

Thank you all for responding and sharing your insights, stories, advice, etc. It's comforting to know I'm not alone. I suppose I just need to keep on, keepin' on. What else is there to do? Thank you