More stress... email from work

So I'm home, I'm unproductive, I'm in bed most of the day (or else I'm here reading, posting or chatting).

And my program has been delayed and delayed and delayed. I should have been getting treatment for more than a week already, but still nothing.

A few minutes ago I got an email from my boss. I emailed him an update yesterday, I've been in touch, I've been trying to do some work at home for them.

In the email, he snipes at me for not calling them. He knows I don't have a phone, "but there are payphones" he says. I can't get out of my house, and unfortunately I don't have a pay phone in my living room.

He says he can't have the graphics department send me any more work at home "until he knows my intentions." "Work vs disability". I guess that explains why I haven't heard anything from them since last week, he must have told them not to send me any more work to do at home.

Then he apologizes for being so "uncompassionate" on Yom Kippur, "but he has his company to look out for to."

I don't know how I can answer. I haven't even been evaluated by a doctor yet (that's supposed to happen when I start the partial program, i.e. two weeks ago) so I don't have anything official to say or any idea of when I'll be back to work.

And even if I did, I'm too stressed out to respond. Too depressed to respond.

I feel very flush from this email, very stressed. My appetite is completely gone and I haven't eaten anything today. All the blood rushed out of my head.

He doesn't know the exact nature of why I am out, they mostly think it is because of my arthritis and because of all the meds I'm taking for physical issues.

I feel more alone than ever here... no one around to visit or anything.

And without transportation, I was worried enough about how to go back to work IF and WHEN I get past the depression... the idea of having to find a new job, without any transportation (and with the arthritis I can't even walk anywhere, to a train or bus) is just terrifying.

I don't have any advice, I can only offer ((((((((((( hugs ))))))))))))

One thing at a time (((DEXTER))))) what is the first thing you CAN do??? Is it somehow get in touch with whomever is responsible for the eval, or is it to continue to wait?? Don't worry about what will need to be done... as you can't do anything about that now. I know, easier said than done. I just know from my T telling me over and over again, I finally "know" what he says is true (know inside.) Life is tougher for some of us than others, they have to learn to deal with it (right after we do.)

Ohhh Dexter..I am soooo sorry. No family to call???

TGC

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can you email the program and explain to them the desperateness of this situation? i'm just so sorry.

kd

<font color="purple">oh Dex, I am so sorry you are going thourgh this all over again. I wish I could offer you some adivce but all I can do is say I love you and send you huggles.. from your fav dragon on here ok.
love to you..
and always in friendship </font>

(((((((Dexter)))))))))
I'm sorry. This is a real bummer for you.
It sounds like your boss is trying to give you a chance but he's right in saying that you need to contact him to let him know what's going on.
Not that that helps you any but I have to defend his position because he's got a business to run and things to take of. Could you E-mail him to keep him updated on everything that's going on?
It sounds to me that program is really messing things up for you. That's not your fault. Is there possibly another program option for you to try? This present one isn't too dependable and seems to be causing you more anxiety and stress then help.
I hope things start looking up for you soon.
I'm really sorry this is all going so crappy for you, Dexter.

I do understand his position, but the thing is I have been keeping them up to date... I emailed him just last night in fact, told him I was still waiting to get admitted into the health system, and so I really still had no idea when I would be able to return to work.

I haven't seen a doctor yet, so I don't know what else I can tell him. He knows I have no transportation right now and no phone, so he didn't have to be snipey with the payphone comment.

The email really felt like he was aggravated about my absence (which is understandable) and decided to relieve his aggravation by emailing me.

I will have to email him something tonight... later, can't deal with it right now.

No family, my father is a liability, I have no siblings.

I do not remember why your father is that way, you can pm me with that info.. just trying to help..

((((((((((dex)))))))))))) so sorry. I don't know where you live, but where I live, they have special busses that are for the disabled. All you have to do is call them and tell them where you want them to pick you up - including the front door of your house.

Too bad you can't be a consultant, where you are your own boss, and work from home.

I agree with the others, email the people to find out about your program.

I hope you hear from them soon. Am thinking of you.

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Huggles from Jmo

(((((((((Dexter))))))))) I'm so sorry all of this is happening to you. What a tough buncha stuff. I'll volunteer to be your sister if you ever need one... since you don't have one, ya know? heh heh. Take care! I'm thinkin of ya.