I hate Life at school

Every hug, every kiss, everytime I see others happy it makes me sad. Going home seems like the only refuge from school. All these exptations from others to get a good education when I really don't like school. And everytime I say that the people I talk to say things like it's not that bad or stop talking about it because their tired of hearing it. But they really don't know how I feel. I try to explain but they really don't know what I'm going through. My best friend of 5 years made me mad and ruined the rest of my day. Her attitudes, her unexplained moodiness makes me mad it hurts how I feel. Yesterday I didn't even feel like drawing or writing to get rid of the emotion. No, instead I watched gorey movies and pretended it was her being ripped to pieces, making me feel better.
College isn't so bright like it used to be, I have no iterest in school anymore but when I was at my old school I was fine but now all the people's stupidity and uncouth has taken it's toll. I want to go home and just do things I want to do but I can't.
I HATE SCHOOL! Seriously! Understand me, listen to me. And I don't want to hear the people at my school anymore.

welcome to pc!!! glad u found us. it's a very supportive group of ppl. they've helped me a lot.
it sounds as tho you are depressed. when i'm that way everything seems futile. do u feel this way too? can you take a breather next semester from school? don't know if that would help. using my therapy helped when i felt that way also. is there a counselor at school you could go see to talk about how u feel?
we're here for you and many of us can relate. post when you feel up to it. that helps too.

Hi. I'm not too good at cheering people up, sorry. However I can refer you to my profile. Please take a look. I experienced something similar to what you are going thru (with additional emotional rejection and down right torture) from age 6. Understand your pain? If you read my profile you will see that, yeh, I can pretty much relate. I felt that the kids in my first grade class were uncouth and very childish. I related to adults with no problem and thought kids were supposed to act just like them. Imagine if you will the fun I had. However, point is, I survived. I know what you're thinking. Yes, I was smart enough to know that if I copied them I could fit in. Just refused to lower myself. Well, after about 12 more years of that, I had to rethink my position. I was going into the workforce and frankly I was just tired. So, I put my mask on and joined the crowd. Now, I can walk in anywhere from the Whitehouse to a crack house and fit right in. Lots of intelligent mature people like yourself have had very similar experiences. I am very sorry for your pain. This is a great site and I believe you can find a lot of people to share with and hopefully help you feel a little better. Welcome, and good luck.

Hi ~ It does sound like you have some depression going on. I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm confused a bit. You said that your BEST friend of 5 years ruined YOUR day because she was moody and her attitude wasn't to your liking. Did you ever stop to think that SHE was in PAIN?? Aren't you acting a little selfish? I don't think you expect EVERYONE to cater to YOUR needs. She couldn't help it if she was emotionally hurting that day. And it can't ruin your day unless you LET it. See what I mean?

Perhaps you're not giving the kids at this school an even chance. It seems that you're a little overly critical of them. Maybe if you put a smile on your face, and said "hello" to a few people, it wouldn't seem so "stupid" and "uncouth." I imagine these kids are the same as kids in any school. You just have to give them a chance.

I hope you're feeling a little better. I know that school can be a bore -- but unfortunately we all need an education. LOL God bless you and take care. Hugs, Lee

I am having the same
issues at school not happy about It thinking about quitting school the only thing Iam glad I finsh high school not with honors or anything like that but I got my high school dipolma .The people at the school is so petty and make me sick so since Iam not happy Iam through with school I wanna know how to do some anime I love drawing and that kind of stuff make me happy.Huggs to what makes you happy

I can relate to you. College is such a hard place to be when you are depressed.
I'm really sorry you're having trouble and I hope you find support on this site. I am also a college student and feel free to message me any time.