[sunflowers07]

I am so angry today. My meds are not working, i'm irritable and just want to be left alone. Oh and now my dad just comes and say's I prefer you to keep your door open. So now no privacy. That's just wonderful. I had a suicide attempt and my sister cancelled the lease on my apartment and moved all my stuff to storage then said it best that I move back home with my parents. I don't want to be here and be babysat. I just got the ok to drive after surgery, but I don't have my car back yet. I can only imagine how it's going to be when I do have my car and want to get out of the house. I have the ok to go back to work on the 21st and don't want to go back to the same place b/c no one there knew I had any mental issues. I can hide it professionally, but my personal life is a mess. I am afraid of the questions they will ask since I have been gone over a month. What happened, where have you been. Everyone is great at work but I guess I just don't want to face them. My dad is home with me everyday and I just want to be alone right now. How can I tell him that though. Things are just the same as they were before my suicide attempt, I still have to pretend everyday that everything is ok. This just sucks.

Hello, sunflowers07. Have you told your psychiatrist the meds are not working?

I hope you soon get this sorted. Good luck.

[sunflowers07]

I don't get to see her till the 15th of March. I know everyone thinks i'm crazy, but I think I can have bad days and not have everyone freak out.

[dillpickle1983]

Originally Posted by sunflowers07

I don't get to see her till the 15th of March. I know everyone thinks i'm crazy, but I think I can have bad days and not have everyone freak out.

Hey, I'm in the same boat. We'll get thru this.

[Sunna]

Hi there Sunflower.

You are hiding so well, that your family did not know in how much anguish and pain you were in that you tried kill yourself. So they want to watch you, well, they wiffed once, and don't know what they should do. They are just scared.
Grumble away though, it's ok. Tell them even how irritating it is to be babysat. If they know you won't hide everything from them maybe they will relax and give you your privacy.
As to your work they would be crazy to think you're crazy. This ain't crazy. Crazy is someone who comes to work with a cat on her head. You are hurting, that's quite different.
If you were my co-worker I would wanna hug you, and ask your forgiveness that I did not see what you're going through and did nothing to help you, not look at you like a loonie.
You are brave to try to carry such a burden alone, so alone, and put up such a front.
Give them a try at work. You don't really know what's gonna happen.

[sunsetsunrise]

Hey Sunflower. I am sorry you have been going through so much. I am sorry that you do not get to see your psychiatrist until the 15th of next month.

Do you have a therapist who you can talk to about the meds? Maybe he or she can call the psychiatrist ??? I really hope you have a good therapist who you relate to. You deserve that.

I am sorry that you felt so much pain that you attempted in the first place. And that things feel like they have not changed at home. All I can say again, is I hope you have a therapist you can talk to. And I am very glad that you are here. To post your real feelings. You can go to chat too. Thats always a good way to be with people, but not have to hide who you are. Because you dont have to hide the real you, when you are here. take good care of yourself, please

[Elley]

[madisgram]

Originally Posted by sunflowers07

I am so angry today. My meds are not working do you see a therapist and psychiatrist? how long have you been on these meds? perhaps if they are newly prescribed they haven't had time to get to a theraputic level. if you've been on them for a while perhaps you pdoc needs to know how you're feeling and consider a med change., i'm irritable and just want to be left alone. Oh and now my dad just comes and say's I prefer you to keep your door open. So now no privacy. how recent was your suicide attempt? perhaps your dad is concerned you may do it again. thus keeping your door open. That's just wonderful. I had a suicide attempt and my sister cancelled the lease on my apartment and moved all my stuff to storage then said it best that I move back home with my parents. it's difficult when we lose our independence but your suicidal state of mind may be why your sister helped move you back home. it may have been recommended by a professional that did an evaluation of your state of mind at the time/now. I don't want to be here and be babysat. I just got the ok to drive after surgery, but I don't have my car back yet. I can only imagine how it's going to be when I do have my car and want to get out of the house. I have the ok to go back to work on the 21st and don't want to go back to the same place b/c no one there knew I had any mental issues. I can hide it professionally, but my personal life is a mess. how so is it a mess?I am afraid of the questions they will ask since I have been gone over a month. What happened, where have you been. Everyone is great at work but I guess I just don't want to face them. if you recently had surgery can you use that as an explanation re your absence?.My dad is home with me everyday and I just want to be alone right now. How can I tell him that though. Things are just the same as they were before my suicide attempt, I still have to pretend everyday that everything is ok.why do you have to pretend that everything is ok? This just sucks.

sometimes our mental health is unstable. it's important we have the help of others to assure our safety. i think that is why you are observed so closely. i know it's difficult but perhaps for the best right now. hope things start to improve soon for you. i would encourage you to talk with your therapist or pdoc about how you are feeling at home. i'm sure you can get helpful feedback from them.

[SophiaG]

I think your dad just wants to keep you safe is all.

After my suicide attempt Ive felt exactly the same. I literally just went to my parents and said "look, I no you were only worried but ..."'and told then exactly how I felt like they were suffocating me and wouldn't let me be on my own for more than half an hour and after I told them it wasn't helping and that I understood why and reassured them that they could trust that if things got bad I'd go to them, they calmed down and are gradually getting back to normal, I think if you just open up to them they will realise and not be so overprotective? Ultimately they all CARE and LOVE you and only want what's best for you. And I understand that all you want to do is be on your own and hide away but honestly it won't help, some alone time is good, but it's good to be around everyone too. I really hope thinks look up - we can get past this! Be strong.