Everything was so right, then it went wrong.

It seems lately all I want to do is cry. I had a break down at school today, since then, I cannot seem to stop crying. Normally, I never cry. I hold it all in and today it just seem to explode in me and I can't control my feelings or my tears. No one seems to really care and I am so scared and so alone. I really don't want to be alone but I have pushed everyone away. I am getting closer and closer to just wishing I was never ever here. Born. Because it seems that everyone would be alot better off without me.
How do you stop feeling this way ? How do you stop the pain from over flowing you and taking you over ? I am at my end. I am ready to jump off the cliff and hit the ground and I have no one to catch me. I am alone.

you're not alone. thanks for being here. I'm glad to read your post because it makes me feel less alone.

trying finding a therapist that you like...or anyone that you can talk to openly and safely about your feelings.

Thank you.

You might try a journal, writing down your thoughts. Sometimes it helps to air them, even if you don't have anyone to talk to. Or write what's bothering you here, and we can sympathize or make suggestions or give you some perspective. Exercise is great; it gives you natural endorphins that will improve your mood. Take a walk or ride a bike or swim. Anything physical is good. Embracing life suggested a therapist; that's a good suggestion. A school counselor might be an option too, and easier to see quickly if you are in crisis. And don't be afraid to call the crisis hotlines. You will likely get a soothing and comforting person to chat with for a few minutes. Take things just a day or an hour at a time. Time will ease the pain, as will taking a few minutes to just breathe deeply and let yourself relax. Do write again and let us know how things are going!