[MoAnamCara]

i know im spiraling downwards.....

i have reached out to a friend, have heard nothing for four days....

reached out to crises folks... heard nothing back

reached out to my counselor.... heard nothing for five days, called today - and nothing

i'm trying to do what i should do which is ask for help. if thats not working and folks aren't responding - now what am i meant to do?

why bother?

[Omers]

Hey, Sorry you are hurting. I am not on much lately but if you need you can PM me and I do check email.

Hi,

Sorry to hear that you haven't been able to find the support you need right now. I hope that somebody gets back to you soon, I know how hard it is to feel alone when you need to talk to someone. I hope you're feeling better soon.

[MoAnamCara]

thanks omers & melissa.recovering

its not good. i definitely need to reach out, im trying. just a little scared, you know?

thanks, you both take care.

[MoAnamCara]

ok this isn't working. am getting more worked up as the clock ticks by. whats going on? why is no one getting back with me? i usually end up pushing folks away, its what i do when they get too close. but i haven't done this with my t.... im not sure what to do next.... i cant face work tomorrow, i can't face my personal life right now, i can't face myself. am at a complete loss.

[Omers]

I'm pushing all the good people away right now and keeping the jerks... you're not alone.

[MoAnamCara]

omers - why do we do that? no clue myself. i suppose protection based on past stuffs... you need to rid yourself of the jerks...

I've worked myself into a frenzy, tears and the whole kit and kaboodle. rediculous behavior.

[thine_self_untrue]

The pulling away and having trouble reaching out are, for me, signs that I am giving up on myself. Who cares what happens to her? No one else, obviously, so why should I bother?

I can sympathize with reaching out and having no quick or supportive response. That really hurts and I'm sorry it's happened to you. Sometimes you are the only one that can fight for you, as hard as that it.

I hope you feel better and get the support you need soon.

[MoAnamCara]

thine self untrue - i agree, yet this time i have tried - as i listed above. the fact that im getting no responses is really tugging on me. it is hurting and is helping to validate why i don't let folks close to start with.

uggh, sorry.

[online user]

It's probably bad coincidences, that the people you have reached out to have either not gotten the message or had trouble getting back to you. Probably not related to not wanting to help you, but circumstances. Hope this changes for you tomorrow and you get some response! But don't let their actions validate YOU--YOU are important and worthy of help. Maybe try to make a list of things you can do on your own. Like take a nice bath, relax with bubbles. Play a favorite record or CD. Walk outside and listen to nature. Take some deep breaths, just relax and say to yourself, "I'm gonna be OK." Then take two fingers, kiss them, and gently rub that kiss on your cheek. It's amazing how theraputic that can be. Take care of yourself, for YOU. You are the one that matters.

[MoAnamCara]

Thank you online user. i surely hope that it is a bad set of coincidences...am really trying to stay afloat. we shall see what the day brings.

take care.

[puddles120710]

Originally Posted by MoAnamCara

i know im spiraling downwards.....

i have reached out to a friend, have heard nothing for four days....

reached out to crises folks... heard nothing back

reached out to my counselor.... heard nothing for five days, called today - and nothing

i'm trying to do what i should do which is ask for help. if thats not working and folks aren't responding - now what am i meant to do?

why bother?

PLEASE KEEP ASKING FOR HELP AND FIGHTING!!!!! I am in the same boat you are. People are brushing me off as well. Remember that you can 911 if it gets too bad. Calling 211 can also help. They are a national resouce group for crisis information. It is kind of like calling 411. They will be able to direct you to crisis providers in your area that specialize in whatever you are calling about. YOU ARE WORTH THE FIGHT!!!!

[MoAnamCara]

thanks puddles

i am a caregiver so can't end up away from that person..... just trapped and struggling.

thank you again, still plugging along here..

[MoAnamCara]

but happy to report that i was reached out to today, will make it to tomorrow. and we go from there.

thank you all. its a hell of a high wire act to be on

[Maria38Divine]

I know how you feel entirely. I was in the same situation a couple months ago. To this day, neither my 'best' friend or pastor at church have returned my calls for help. I had to reach out to a complete stranger. I'm glad that you hung in there until someone finally responded to your call. That is a real show of strength.

[MoAnamCara]

Originally Posted by Maria38Divine

I know how you feel entirely. I was in the same situation a couple months ago. To this day, neither my 'best' friend or pastor at church have returned my calls for help. I had to reach out to a complete stranger. I'm glad that you hung in there until someone finally responded to your call. That is a real show of strength.

thanks Maria. I am very sorry that those closest to you were unhelpful. It seems to happen that way, maybe an odd thing to say for me as I don't let too many people "in".

Please take care.