[googley]

I've gone from being numb to being depressed. It probably isn't good that I am cutting back on my meds because I can't afford them. I think that is making everything worse.

I feel so alone. It feels like no one IRL cares. I was told tonight that the family I was working for probably hasn't paid me yet (they were supposed to send me a check) because they can't. Well, where does that leave me w/ rent, food, meds etc. So I'm supposed to feel sorry for them when I can't pay my bills? It's not like I can tell my debtors to go after them for the money. Why doesn't anyone care. Even my parent don't care. They act like it is no big deal.

I had to stop seeing my T and so I don't even have her support.

I feel so alone. All the time I just want to cry. And that never really has been a part of my depression for me, or at least, I have been able to stop it. Now it seems like I have no control over it.

Life isn't supposed to be this hard.

[disguise123]

aw, no its not.
Life can be incredibly unfair.
Can u get some help from a welfare agency until they can pay u?

[onlymedid]

I'm so sorry that you are going through such a hard time. I wish there were some words I could say that would make things better for you, but all I have right now are *hugs*

[Rohag]

I wish I had a good idea for each one of your tears, but I don't.

May these trials soon become memories, and may future happiness banish them from your mind.

[Nola22]

Hi ((((((((googley)))))))). I know how you feel, caught in a whirlwind of seeming apathy from those you expect to care, and circumstances you can't make line up, despite your best efforts. You have every right to not believe me or tell me I'm full of it, but you will get through this. Hopefully, something will give and at least one aspect of what you're facing will work out, to start. Perhaps you could try approaching your parents again, and offer them the most pragmatic aspect of your situation, the one with which they might be the most help?

From the few times I've had the pleasure to interact with you here on the site, I recall that you're in school at present. Is there any way you might avail yourself of their counseling services and/or psych grad students in training as a means of therapy until you may return to your T? I know it's not the same as the rapport and trust you've built with your T, but perhaps it might serve as a stopgap measure and offer some relief until things are on a more even keel.

Wishing you all the best, googley--hang in there!!

[Elana05]

(((Googley)))
My heart is with you.

[turquoisesea]

I wish life were easier for all of us. I'm so sorry about your T and everything else you have lost. Its ok to cry when you lose something you care about. It hurts. And there's no way around that. But remember there can be better in the future, you can get your T back, you can get a job again, it will take time but it's all possible for you.

I care about you, Im sorry you're not getting care irl, and hope things get better soon

[embracinglife]

Hey Mr. eeyore. Don't stay too glum I wish I could cheer you up! It really sucks about your meds, $$, and having to stop seeing T. Seems like things probably couldn't get much worse. Stay strong, you can get through this. Message me if you need anything.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( googley ))))))))))))))

[justfloating]

(((((((((((((((googley))))))))))))))