I Dont Know What to Do ?

Ok guys I know I haven’t been on here for a while. I’ve been trying really hard to keep my demons at bay. I’ve stopped cutting for about 7months now. But a couple of weeks ago I did something stupid and I kept snapping a rubber band around my wrists till it started to bruise. Plus I’ve started university in new city and I’m finding it really hard because I don’t know any one or where anything is.

I guess my main point that I’m trying to make is that I feel like cutting again, and all my depression is coming back. I’m so afraid of it coming back.

If anyone has any advice it would be great

I'm so sorry you're down. I hope you don't hurt yourself...

Answer this:
When I cut myself I feel......
I remember when I felt this (in childhood Or etc)....
And that made me feel.......
But the truth is.......

Truth above feelings = letting go of fear. I hope this helps sweetie.
You are not alone. Hang in there. One step at a time.
Hugs!!

Change is really hard, especially a new city that you are unfamiliar with. The feelings of depression might stem from being overwhelmed? Maybe it will calm down when you feel more comfortable. Is there a group for new students you could join? I know some schools here offer that. It's a good way to meet people and feel more comfortable. Kudos for 7 months with no SI - that is quite an accomplishment! Hang in there and please don't hurt yourself!

I agree with can't stop crying. Change seems to have kicked in the depression and some anxiety. Can you find a doc there or therapist? Or definitely look for a support group to get you oriented to where you are. Fight the urge to cut. Be careful and good luck.

Reaching out for support helps me when I feel I may do something to harm myself. Just to share what is going on helps so much. When I feel supported I don’t feel so overwhelmed and it makes it easier to back away from harming myself. Keep reaching out for all the love and care you need to get through this. Sending very gentle (()) of support and comfort. Patricia

I tried to join groups but people are just ignorng me. I made friends with girl but then she ditchd me. I feel so alone. I haven't cut yet but I'm pretty close to. I've traced on my arms over all my old wounds. And like I said I just don't know what to do

But I dont have any one here that I can turn to. I ve tried to make friends, but it didnt work out. Plus i thought that i made friends with this 1 girl but she ended up ditching me for other people. So im a loner that just sits bythemselves. I sort of hada relapse today and strated to pink myself. and i kept thinking about but cutting yet i didnt. but now im afraid that im going to start again

Just keep holding on, okay. I'm sorry you are going through this. Is there a school counselor you could talk to?

I don’t like school counselors, they lied to me repeatedly. Plus I don’t know where any other counselors are and I'm afraid to go by myself.

hmmm, my only suggestion is that you get out and do something that takes your mind off of things. have you considered getting a part-time job? it's more than about the money, it's also about the people you will meet. when i was in college, i took a part-time job at a dept store as a cashier on the evening shift (6 PM - 10 PM). most of the others were also college students. we would go out after work and have a nice time. i got invited to parties. i met a lot of people, some nicer than others, and made a group of friends. it was totally unexpected; i was there for the spending money but i learned a lot about life. it gave my life some purpose - i had a place to go at 6 PM 5 days a week. and, i left behind all my old friends who were more interested experimenting with drugs. they went nowhere; i lived.

volunteer work is another option. to this day, i still do it. it's rewarding and i meet a lot of nice people who value friendship and art more than they do money. i love dance but could find no one else who shared my love of it. it got depressing going by myself. now, i volunteer as an usher.

yeah, i have to admit that both working and volunteering forced me to learn how to be social. (i was raised by anti-social people.) it sounds like you need to try something new to help yourself. it's time to get out there and start learning by exposing yourself to new experiences.

sometimes, living mainly in your head is not a good place to be. apply for jobs in places that have a lot of employees your age and that have some interest to you, e.g., helping others, fashion, whatever. (avoid places where you would be lonely, e.g. a small convenience store.) rise to the social challenges that are posed rather than shying away from them, e.g., do people favors, chat about small upbeat things, always say hello and smile, joke around, say compassionate things about others; try to avoid saying/doing negative things. for sure, there will be ups and downs. continue to be resilient. you can do it!

I have a casual job on Checkouts on Tuesday, Thursday nights and weekends both days. Ive been doing that job for 4.5 years, but then I had to get transferred to a higher division so now I have to learn the same things again but in a new way, and its all because I decided to go to university. Which is what I have every other day.

I don’t know why I even bothered I mean I’m not that smart and I dont have the brains for it any way.

i try to go to clubs on friday nights, but im usually too tired to. and even then i dont really have the money for it

Pele,
I haven't cut in over 5 months and it is still very tempting to go back. Yet, You need to continue life without it.You are worth god's effort, you are worth someone's time. There will be times where it seems like it's too much but like my favorite song says, "stand in the rain" We are all here to listen to you. Message me anytime you need someone to talk to.

Yeah well it certainly feels like I'm not worth anyone’s time.

I know the feeling all too well trust me....it does get better

I highly doubt its going to get better on account of I have been at uni for at least 1 and 1/2 months and don't have any friends + I'm failing 1 course so far and I've started to drink more

Do you want to get better? It's hard work, but it's something you have to decide to do.
You are worth it! Try to hang in there, okay?

Of course I want it to get better. I've tried so damn hard, it just isnt working. I mean I have have introduced myself to everyone in the classes that I'm in, but no one seems to be interested in being friends with me. Like I said it’s been almost 1 month since I started university and I don’t have any friends.

It's like I'm invisible or something. The only time that they noticed me was when I walked in late to the lecture, thats it.

Sorry to hear that, maybe invite someone out for coffee or see if they want to study or something. Take the initiative and see where it gets you

I have asked but no one seems interested.+ a lot of them like to go to the party clubs and get drunk. And they tend to stick in groups. I'm just so alone. When I txt my friends they don't even reply.1 does but its usually 2-3 hours later. The people who were my friends in high school haven't talked to me since I left even though I've txted them and emailed them. More so to the point my mum knows that I hate it here yet all she can say is you'll be right kiddo. Even when she rings thats all she says is see you kiddo. Shes never once said she loved me or that shell come and get me.