[happy_bunny]

I give up, the whole world seems to hate me, or has givin up. The anger and lonelyness keeps building and no one seems to help.

[allthegirls6]

I dont hate you happybunny. Not with a name like yours.

All the girls

[kimmydawn]

happybunny, I'm sorry that things feel so bad right now. I've felt that way and it's far from a good feeling.

I hope that you feel better soon.

We don't hate you

[happy_bunny]

I myself, for some reason cant trust anyone, so many people have hurt me, i wonder if anybody loves me at all, even the important ones.

[ZuZu]

happybunny,
There are days I feel so trapped. I can't live and I can't die. But I will never give up! Since you are from Tx, " Remember The Alamo" They didn't have a chance. but they didn't give up. I have been battling depression most of my life. It can get better.

[happy_bunny]

Is it bad to be bisexul?

[allthegirls6]

no

[happy_bunny]

How do i put pain into words, how do i let out what im feeling. These emotions are building to were i cant think strait, to were i dont know what to do. My life seems to be a nightmare. A dream that never lets me wake up. I feel like a ghost that cant be put to rest, will i ever find happyness, or will i keep running in shadows, running to the light that seems so far way.

((((((((happybunny))))))))))

[(JD)]

Whatever it is that is making you feel so terrible, needs to be talked out and worked through... ((((((hugs)))))))

[Overcastbutclearing]

((happybunny))))
I understand the painful feelings...despite we may have different reasons for the pain.
I have difficulty in trusting too. I am so afraid of abandonment.
I hope you keep working through your feelings. Keep posting here. Keep letting it out.
Let's hope you soon can put the "happy" back in happybunny!

[happy_bunny]

My mother puts her boyfriend befor me, she's the only person i have in life and now she is gone. My father got caught with drugs the last time i heard of him. Why is it that the world hates me? Why am i being punished for something i didnt do? I feel alone and hated by evry living thing around . This world is a dark place for me.

[happy_bunny]

Some times i wonder if i have any meaning in life at all. Right now i cant see myself with a future. I feel that i dont igsist to others around me. Am i person? am i alive? Or am i just a ghost walking aroung confused of why people cant see me.

[BlueFaith]

((((((((((happybunny)))))))))
My parents always put something or someone else before me, too. I know your feelings of hopelessness very well. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that their version of normal really isn't very normal at all. You are important and you matter. I know it may be hard to see right now. Have you tried talking to you mother? I know I never could talk to mine because she didn't want to hear anything I had to say. This may be the case with you, too. Just keep posting here, and know that we care about you. You can send me a Pm anytime you need to, ok? Take gentle care of you.

[happy_bunny]

I tried and it doesnt make one bit of a differents to what i say to her.

[lostangel]

Dont give up. I been there and I am there now again so I know how you feel. But you are not alone there are people out there who care and want to help. And we are here.

[lostangel]

You know I come from the same thing with my mom and my sister. They done the same thing to me ever since I was young to now and with my kids too. So I know and understand how you feel about this problem. And it is true we are here for you and for anyone else too. Just like I like to know you guys are here to for me. We are friends.

[happy_bunny]

UHHHH! Why is life so bad. I seem to hate everything right now. Im tierd of this darkness. I WANT TO BE FREE!

[Lou_Pilder]

HB,
You wrote,[...life so bad...hate evrything...this darkness...want to be free...].
Is not darkness the absence of light? If so, could then light dispell the darkness? Could light be Truth? If so, if you could know the truth, could you then be made free?
Lou

[happy_bunny]

What i ment was that every time i get closer to the happyness i wish for im kick back 10 times further away, its like the darkness and people dont want me to be happy.

[Lou_Pilder]

HB,
You wrote,[...get closer to ...happinesss....kick back..further....its like the darkness...people don't want me to be happy...].
What kicks you {back further}? Is it that all people do not want you to be happy, or a spacific group of people that do not want you to be happy?
Lou

[happy_bunny]

When i get a problem fixed another problem starts, Mark my moms boyfriend says thing that upset me and my mom doesnt seem to care, when i try to be the person he want me to be its seems i screw up, hes always right, im wrong and he makes me feel that i cant make the right dissesions. And when i get angry, or upset the darkness inside me grows more and it pushes me back from the happyness i want to get to.

[Leslie]

(((((((((((((((happy)))))))))))))))

I care about you and I know many here do also.

Leslie

[happy_bunny]

im getting to a point were i want to give my life up, i want to quit school and let my life go, i live but im gonna quit on everything. im done i cant take the pressure anymore, i finished, im out.

[(JD)]

((hugs))) I'm sorry you are in such a state... you probably do need to cut back on things where you feel pressure to complete or compete.. but don't take away things you knew you used to like to do... unless there are too many of them. It's ok to slow down, or even stop for a bit, catch up with yourself, allow yourself some quiet time... and not think about going forward but just being. Depression limits what we can do, how much we can take, how we think... don't let it win, but do take care of yourself. (Have you read over the CBT 10 cognitive distortions?)

One step at a time.