Ouch..

omg i am 13 and i just jad my first shot of wine. PUKING! gross but hey its good i am gonna have 3 more shots and thats all.

I am not sure what kind of response you are looking for.
In a pm you told me you were 14. Now in this post you say 13.
I am hoping that you will go to someone in your real life and tell them you are hurting. Tell them you are needing help. The forums here are a supplement, if you will, to the work you are doing in your own life.
You seem to be doing things that are harmful to your body and it is my sincere wish you take a step back and get yourself help.

People with depression sometimes gravitate toward drugs and alcohol because it helps relieve the depression temporarily. Many undiagnosed depression and bipolar sufferers become serious addicts because of trying to "self medicate" themselves. Of course, unlike real treatment, the effects are only temporary, the rebound effects make you feel worse overall, and of course you destroy the rest of your body in the process.

This is not a good road to start down on. Like SJ said... go find someone you trust and seek some real help with this. Healthy, productive help is available. Keep asking until someone gets on the path toward a good pdoc and therapist.

Caroline

Ditto what SJ and Dex said!!!