[justfloating]

I have so much work to do and deadlines to meet. I've known about this for ages but I've been putting it off and putting it off because every time I so much as look at a textbook I feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm exhausted and I haven't DONE anything in days. I've been managing to shower and get dressed but beyond that I've spent most of my time in bed hiding from the world.

I have about three weeks left of school, but I have no idea how I'm going to get through the next three HOURS, let alone weeks. I just don't care anymore.

[Elana05]

Dear Rebecca,

Just adding a new med and changing your brain chemistry again is totally exhausting. It is awesome that you got up and out of bed and clean and dressed. Boy can I hear that. Some days that is a miracle feat for me as well. Please don't give up. Hang in there. We are here with you. Can you call your t? Sometimes it is even helpful to do the opposite of what needs to be done at the moment. Can you just put it all aside and go to the coffee shop to write? Maybe this will put you back in charge again. Remember, you are in charge. This is your own life, no one else's. Anyone who doesn't understand, doesn't realize that this type of depression would bring them to their knees as well. People don't know what they don't know. The first and foremost is to take care of you and do what you need at the moment. My deep, deep thoughts of support go out to you.

[turquoisesea]

((((((rebecca))))))

I too am exhausted right now, I just FINISHED a semester at school, and I think my depression has been not as bad as yours - and I still feel exhausted. In the past 3-5 weeks I've been scrambling, one step behind it felt like at all times. Maybe a few more steps that one at times. I think what you need to do is use all the coping skills you have learned, try to talk to your professors to get some deadline extensions if necessary and prioritize your time so you are working at ONLY ONE THING AT A TIME. Sorry for the caps :P I'm rambling a bit and I know at least for me it can be hard to concentrate at longer paragraphs :P

Can you get a note from your T listing medical reasons for extensions? Is there a study group at school you could meet with for just one hour a day (or less) in a single class so you don't have to extend any deadlines for that particular class?

Are you able right now to make a short list of things that needs to be done? If you can do that, choose one and circle it. Lets say you choose "Paper for French class", then you would take out a piece of paper, write that as the title and make a list of smaller tasks you need to do in order to start and finish a paper. For instance "Read pages 1-50 of text", "Write intro paragraph", or whatever type of thing you do. Circle a task, then make a list of smaller goals. Keep making the tasks smaller until you are not overwhelmed when you look at just one of the tasks.

Take a break, then accomplish the single task you circled. Then , celebrate what you have accomplished.

Then, when you feel ready you can go back to your list, and circle something else.

Just an idea not sure if it could work for you ((((((((((Rebecca)))))))))))

Originally Posted by justfloating

I just don't care anymore.

I totally understand that feeling Justfloating. For me, that spelt the end of my degree. After 7yrs of being totally focused on finishing my degree and becoming a dr (4yrs of which I've been diagnosed depressed), not caring anymore was the straw that broke the camel's back. I was 2 months from graduating.

I'm not saying that means that you should leave too. I guess I'm just saying that I understand

*Willow*