I need some adviceee.. :/

New here, seeking advice from anyone--esspecially those dealing with, or who have dealt with problems like mine..

So, I'm usually feeling very depressed.. Though, at the same time I can joke around with others and act absolutely fine. MOST of the time, no one will notice, but if they do I lie about things. Then I sort of get irritated if they can't tell I'm lying. :/

I don't know if I can do anything myself, but I really don't think I can go to anyone, including my parents to get diagnosed with depression or...anything like that... Not entirely sure why, but I've always had issues with trust and I'm 100% sure my mom would tell everyone within sight about what I told her if I were to mention this to her.

Sometimes I will actually feel pretty good though. Definitely have highs and lows, and I really don't understand myself... >.<

Also, after taking Ibuprofen for random aches and pains for quite a while, I realized that it makes me pretty hyper..I actually feel pretty good when I take it. I had my dad buy a bottle (For stomach cramps--I told him anyway), and I've been taking a lot of them...people have noticed that I'm different too, because they've mentioned how I seem more...excited. I know it isn't good for me. Esspecially not taking 6-8 200 mg tablets a day..but it really seems helpful to me..I'm scared to stop. I've finally felt okay for short amounts of time.

I know I definitely shouldn't be hiding something like this, and taking pills which aren't even intended for such a problem--even if they help--and esspecially with the warnings, etc...I just really don't know how else to deal with it.

I need suggestions, things that will most likely work, even just ideas, whatever anyone can offer would be great. Thanks. xx.

Please don't continue taking those pills ~ they can eat your stomach and cause bleeding without warning. You should NOT be taking that many. Please stop taking them.

Why not see your medical doctor?? Talk to him and tell him how you usually feel. I'm sure he could help you. If he can't he can refer you to someone who can. And of course no one would need know that you went to see him ~ your privacy would be kept.

Please make an appointment. You do need to talk to someone. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

Hello & Welcome, RAGEandLOVE!

Just for reference: National Institutes of Health Ibuprofen page

Your "Occupation" listed on your profile page is interesting. Only if you feel comfortable doing so, would you explain further?

In any event, I hope you can get some discreet help from a medical professional.

@Leed: I've been taking the pills because they seem to help when nothing else will...I know about the stomach bleeding, etc...I just really don't know what else I can do. I can't discreetly see a doctor because I'm not even old enough to drive. Even so, I'm not sure about the laws of minors/doctors--what the doctor can tell my parents without my consent, anyway. Besides that its a small town and everyone....knows everything....about everyone elses business... >.<

@Rohag: I just mean that my mother is a failure as a parent while my dad is always working to support our family of 7. Instead of taking care of things around the house, she really does nothing and makes me do everything while she yells at me about how terrible and lazy I am. Once Dad gets home, she gets off the computer and sits on the porch as if she's been doing all of the work. I know my dad knows most of the things she does. Because we've talked about it when she isn't around. As he has with the rest of my siblings. They (my parents) argue quite a lot. She never does anything though so I'm forced to take care of her responsibilities.

That many pills can cause ulcers in your stomach and you may accidentally overdose. I went through the same problem with my parents... they don't believe in psychological problems. They say its all in my head. My girlfriend finally forced me to go see my doctor about my depression and my parents still have no clue. I would highly recommend that you go see a doctor for your depression and your addiction to ibuprofen. Hope it all works out.