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I don't know even where to begin. I feel like im parinoid all the time, angry, numb, upset confused. Im freaking out and I'm on the verge of tears and I'm clueless. I have SAT's this weekend, a test in a few hours, a project I haven't finished, I have my dean and my mom breathing my back to finish collage applications. I keep fighting with my parents, I even called my mom the dreaded C-word, for no reason, I even slapped my "father" across the face and I didn't even care. I feel like I'm falling apart.

Im not motivated to do or fix anything, I can't sleep and idk just like i want to scream then sleep for a really long time

[Emotionally Dead]

Sounds like you're going through a lot, so it's understandable that you're getting frustrated and even angry.

The only thing you did that really was wrong was slapping your Father. No matter how angry you get you really need to control yourself and not let anger get physical. People lash out on each other every once in a while but you need to keep it from getting violent.

Other than that, yelling at your mom and calling her a rude name is understandable but it might be best to try not to call her such names.

I know how you feel about having a lot on your plate. My Mother left me when I was young and I had to grow up REAL fast and was pretty much on my own. My Senior year in High School I was working, finishing High School, and going to College at the same time so I understand how you feel.

I don't really have any advice to make it better, except to keep telling yourself that it is going to be okay and things will get better eventually. The school work and all that is important but after tomorrow all of that will be over and then you'll start a bunch of new things. So just know that this is temporary and it's just a part of your life where you have to step up and suck it up.

Wishing you the best.

I agree that slapping your father was not a very nice thing to do but we've all done things we regret in the heat of the moment (myself included). Just don't do it again obviously and if I were you I'd apologize to both your father and your mother and tell them why you did it. Maybe try to talk to one of your parents or both about why you're stressed and why you're acting the way you are. Maybe they might be able to help you relieve the pressure if you tell them exactly what a load you have on your back right now... because it is a lot and it's very understandable that you feel weighed down and confused.

I hope everything works out for you soon.

[roses4me]

delagate, delagate, delagate
give you mom the job of the college applications. ask her to fill all that she can... addresses etc. then you can fill in what she can't. Should keep her busy for a while so she can't yell at you for awhile
get the dean to request an extension for the project... put a do not disturb sign on the door while you are doing it or go to the library at school where your parents are not fighting
you'll just have to do the tests anyway... but they will end and you can always redo the sats
roses