Anyone on the same page as me?

Here's the thing is, I have no friends and the friends that I DO have are only my friends because they met my boyfriend and became friends with him first. It's like I'm totally incapible of making friends of my own, not that you even need to bust out your toes if u want to count the friends I have now.
I love my boyfriend to pieces (We've been dating for nearly 2 years and I do fully anticipate staying with him forever, even if everyone thinks I'm "too young" to know what I want) , but I feel like the worst g/f ever. Seriously. One way I constantly %#@&#! him off is by worrying that he's mad. Then if he IS mad I just start crying. I personally don't understand HOW he can love me, but I know he does as hard as it is to see sometimes.
I'm spending thousands of dollars to go to college and get a good education, and what for? It's an "investment in yourself" but what if you don't think that's a solid investment? I'm not even good at anything, that's why I can't declare a major, because I think I'd fail at most of them... seriously...
So, I'm whining like I always do. Call me an attention seeker or w/e (it wouldn't be the 1st time)... say whatever you want, just be honest... sorry if u find me annoying, but I'd rather hear that I'm annoying than not hear anything at all. The only thing worse than negitive attention is none at all.

Kayleigh... I can't speak to your dx or whoever has questioned your motives... but from what you post some these could be signs of depression. Are you in treatment? See a therapist or a psychiatrist? Taking any medications to help?

There is help with the feelings you have... the feelings of being unworthy, and when you are depressed you tend to push people away and then feel like you have no friends.

I can tell you that I have no family to help me out... my friends have gone "scarce" since I became ill (I only have one that really stays in touch) and I don't have a b/f or any sort of significant other in my life. So from my point of view you are one up on that Not that that makes you feel any better, nor should it necessarily, but the point is depression really distorts ones reality, but it is unnecessary to suffer the consequences if you seek treatment and work hard at recovery.

(((((((((((((((((((Kayleigh)))))))))))))))))))

(((kay)))) I'm sorry you are still going through these emotions so! Since you have been with the same guy for 2 years and you are "young" you really don't know how it could be without him now, or with someone else.. you might not have these same strong bad feelings about yourself .. or him... but you stay in the relationship because you are afraid of being alone.. or afraid of the unknown (aren't most people!)

Please come back and post more, tell us if you are in therapy for these feelings and all you are going through.... TC