Seeing yourself

good .. Working on ourselves is a majour thing to do ...

I will hope you get the offer still open. and I will hope, that you will fall in love again, and hopefully you have learned from the mistake you made in the past..
If you do not learn, then you will repet it over and over again..
So try to learn from this heartache.. it is the only way we survive

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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Watch out for rebound relationships! Can be dangerous.

Hi Vett

Im real new on here but I just read ur post and it stood out to me.

Your ex gf might not even be speaking the truth at the moment, she is just hurting still. Betrayal takes a lot out of a girl.

She wants you to feel bad.

But don't let it get you down, as long as you know how you feel and don't let what she says influence that. Of course she won't believe you if u betrayed her but in time she might come round. Shes hurting thats all, sometimes when people hurt they want the 1 who hurt them to hurt too - in this case thats you !!

Your not a bad person etc because of this, people make mistakes, and your only human (i assume :P hehe). Its all up to her really!

Look after yourself

nzgal....

Well, I'd like to think that I am not a bad person. I do give of myself and have accomplished a great deal in my life. Actually have accomplished a lot in my career that has made a difference in people's lives. I spend countless hours coaching girls softball. I know I am a good person, I know I have value... I also know that I have made grievace mistakes. And, these mistakes are haunting me each and every waking moment (which is why I can not wait to crawl into bed each day).

My ex girl friend will never "come around". That is my reality. And, I also see the other side of her. She does want to cause me pain. I guess in many ways I deserve it. She has done just enough to embarrass me publicly and to hold a veiled threat over my head. I worry each day that she will follow through on exposing me and then I will lose my job.

It is nearly impossible for me to concentrate on anything. Meds and therapy are not making a dent in my state of mind as it is these problems combined with loneliness and isolation that is bringing me down. I just lost a dear aunt of mine last Thursday and on top of everything else had to make funeral arrangements and clean out her apartment. There is just no joy in my life any longer.

Sorry for venting.