[kawi4]

It's like I'm having to be 2 differant people right now. I'm at work all day having to appear normal but as soon as I'm in my office or by myself, I just start crying. Same when my kids were with me last week. It's getting so hard to keep it together. I'm so scared I'm going to lose my kids or my job or something. People don't seem to care or want to understand. The pills don't seem to work for me and things are getting worse and worse. I'm so lost...

Hey kawi4! I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. Did something happen to get you to this point or has it just been gradually coming on? I can relate about keeping 2 faces, one at work and one at home. It's very hard. I hope you're well today.

[gma45]

Hi, Have you changed meds? I would call my Dr. and let him know they are not working. sending you hugs((((((((kawi4)))))))))

[kawi4]

Thanks for the support. I stopped taking the meds about 3 years ago now. I just got sick of all the pills and side effects without any real changes occurring. I was managing pretty well and then about 3 months ago the deppression came rolling in like a tidal wave. It's been non stop since. Can't pin-point any one event happening to trigger it. It never goes away, but at least it wasn't drowning me before. Don't know what to do. Can't afford a therapist and don't want to go back to the endless pill combos trying to find the right one. Just waiting and hoping it will pass eventually.

[turquoisesea]

hey there, I"m assuming since you have pills you have a doctor? Do you have a therapist? That's a great first step to start from