[lostangel]

I am so depress and upset and stressout and everything else that goes with feeling like sh..I am going through so much with my son and the things he is doing and his problems and then with my family and my boyfriends family and him and i and finding a work and not able to live the way i would like too. i am so sick of people that i know say they are hard up for money they don't know the meaning of it all. i am so hard up for money i had to turn to something that i wish i didn't have to and i am so upset about that. i hate myself for that. no one understands what i am going throught and what i have to deal with. i just feel like running and never coming back. i cry and cry at hight. i feel i am a brother and i feel my son is too. i feel he would be happier with his real dad but he says he will not be. i don't know what to do anymore about anything. so lost so stress and upset..

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[CedarS]

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[Hope4me2]

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[lostangel]

in my dreams my boyfriend and i broke up. i been feeling this for a bit now because of everything that is going on. my son took money that he was not too and he is lying about it. i got so mad at him and my boyfriend and it is stressing me out because they can not get alone and my son has a big problem with his sister who was born 3 years ago and he can not get over it. no one understands me they all say do this do that but really they don't know what it is like. parts of me want to give my son to his real father so i don't have to deal with this and the other don't that i can not turn away on my son. there is so much i can tell you guys but it would take my days to tell you. maybe my doctor tomorrow can help me. i am going to take a walk today and thinking about what i am going to do about everything.

[lostangel]

well everyone who is still reading this. i am still going throught alot of problems and bs. too much going on.

[dottie]

LostAngel, I am so sorry for your stress at the moment. Would any changes in your mode of living possibly bring about change?

[LMo]

Lost, I'm sorry to hear about your problems. You are obviously under way too much pressure.

I'm sorry I don't know your whole story, but what's the deal with your son's dad? Do you keep in contact with him? Would you want his help, even if not full-time?

[lostangel]

ya you dont know half of the problems where. my sons dad is not a good man and he never wanted his son or a family. i never loved him and liked him i only stay with my sons father for my son. and the last time my son saw his real dad was back in 2001 christmas and that was not good too. my sons fathers parents are not better too. so my son is better off with out them. he has a sept dad that real cares about him and that is what he needs. sometimes kids are better off with out a parent i should know. i have two dads and they both are not good man. but thanks.

[lostangel]

ya dont feel sorry. but thanks. i will be ok. i am just not happy and i am getting the help that i need. i know for one that i need to get out and not be around these four walls anymore and i need to have those around me to stay out of my face and stop treating me bad like they are doing. i make mistakes just like everyone else.

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((lostangel))))))))))))))))))) i'm so sorry that you've been through so much and that there's been no let-up whatsoever.

Have you ever seen a therapist? Can you talk to your doctor about needing help with some of the things that are going on right now?

We're here to listen as well.

Warm thoughts...

KD

[lostangel]

thanks. i am going to see one next week for the family. i have a new doctor and he is great. manny knows how unhappy i am and how sick i am and that i am trying to get better. but thanks.