******WHEN PAIN CUTS LIKE A KNIFE*****

Why is it that sometimes to get healthy you first most go through extreme amounts of pain?
Why??????????????????????
My heart is so broken this morning.
I know it had to break to be "re-set". But the agony is so intense. My chest physically hurts and I am sick to my stomach.

I do not know the answers you seek, because I seek them also. Yeah it really does suck that you have to endure so much pain to be healthy. I guess we just have to hang in there to reap the benefits of our pain...to see where it takes us.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((suz))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i know this pain. it will ease. hang in there. you're being thought about.

Love,

KD

Thanks Lexicon and Kimmy Dawn!
Wow...I just cannot explain in words how painful my heart aches.
Holding on...because T has my other hand...but so difficult to keep the grip.
I want to heal...but right now all my wounds are wide open and the salt truck is just emptying itself into it.

Pain. There are so many kinds..... sorry yer heart had to split open in order to grow. Ow Ow Ow
Did you ever sit in a garden, in a quiet place, and listen to flower buds literally POP open to release their hidden flowers to the sun? Blooming's a *****. but, worth the effort.
Slog on thru sistah, here are some waders, hope they help.......

Wow! How true that growing is painful. I particularly like "blooming's a *****", there is that saying "...and then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom." I've always kind of liked it, so your comment was perfect.

I was just whining to my t about hating the feeling of weakness and dependency on therapy and on him. He said similar stuff, that it's not weakness or dependency, it's growing and getting stronger and healthier. That it's not the weak people that go into therapy. It takes strength and courage to decide to face your life and yourself, to want to work on those things, so we are the courageous ones.

Makes working through the pain a bit better to take.

TC, Quay

Yes, I have had the visualization of stabbing myself in the heart with a knife. It was very strong and persistent after the ending of my last relationship (which brought me here seeking help). I'm over the trauma of the disastrous relationship, but I still have the knife visiting from time to time when I sink into thinking about it. All I can tell you is that it will lessen with time, and you will return to healing.
Seeker