[tymewilltell11]

hello its been a while, just trying to cope with tis depression and i think i may have taken a step in the right direction but i dont know honestly. im not sure of much of anything. cant even tell if im coming or going and dealing with depression adds to it. i made an appointment to see a psychiatrist and i dont know if that was the right thing to do or should i have made an appoinment to a psychologist. im just trying to get an understanding as to what im up against and dealing with and how to treat it.

i was excited to get this new job and its been rocky ever since.. but either this is depression or a combination of a very negative work enviorment where everyone is on this "clique" type deal as if we were still in high school. i come there to do my job and go home and whats the harm in that. some days its hard with the issues i have going on with being depressed. and it shows in my facial expression and body language. and thats why i want to seek help. but it didnt make matters worse that i chose to do my work and stay out of peoples crosshairs and for that im called a lazy person,and stupid.and the sad part is these are hourly associates having conversations with management. im prior military and where i come from there is a thing called honor and respect and professionalism. and this type stuff ends up playing on my depression. it used to be a point in time where i would go off on these type people or just shrug it off and keep doing what i had to do. now it bothers me and im worried. because im starting to let others get to me and feel low and i hate that. i just want to be able to live and let live. i dont bother anyone but because im not "popular" or what not im an outcast. i know i do my job to the best of my ability if not i would not have been hired full time. but for other people to say that bothered me. and at this job peoples opinions go a long way with the right managers and it sucks. work place stress is something i dont need. and i need help i feel on edge and im tired of it

[my3sns]

Thats awful people should have more pride in themselves than to stoop so low as to call others names. As far as the pdoc goes my thoughts are this ... go and check the person out see what you think , then decide if you need to try the psychologist.. hand in there just a little while longer its tough , but you can do it

[tymewilltell11]

Originally Posted by my3sns

Thats awful people should have more pride in themselves than to stoop so low as to call others names. As far as the pdoc goes my thoughts are this ... go and check the person out see what you think , then decide if you need to try the psychologist.. hand in there just a little while longer its tough , but you can do it

yes its very sad that people result to childish levels and especially sad when its people in ket positions. you never know what people are going through and what they deal with on a day to day. and reality of it is no one cares,selfishness and other issues are important.. but im gonna hold my head high as possible and not let these people see me sweat.

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[Bella01]

Oh yes the bichering that goes on between co workers. How I don't miss that whole thing. I was like you by I just want to do my job and socialize but not the bichering part.

Go see the pdoc first then you can get on some meds if needed and then go see a psyc.