F this bs!!! **~TRIGGER~**

God I am so sick of this crap. First off I go into the hospital for severe sui depression for the second time in four months and this time discharged worse than when I got there. Not to mention the absolutely horrible anxiety I am having that is completely interfering with my life and the things going on with family in town. All I want to do is crawl in bed and wait to go...I cant f'n take it anymore!!!!! I have partial this week but Im not so sure it going to be enough. I dont know what to do!?!?!?!?!?

Hello MELISSSAD81,

I'm not sure what to say, except that I've been where you are right now, and it DOES get better. I know at this point you may feel like things can only get worse, but keep hanging in there. And keep posting here, we care about you.

Thanks melissa I guess I have given up hope on getting better. One of the mhw's(mental health workers) told me that I have a very severe case of sui depression that they always see improvement in others when they are here for depression. In other words Im a hopeless case seeing as I kept getting worse. Funny how my dr can tell me im better but the mhw i worked with the most essentially told me i was the worst or one of anyway. Whatever do the partial and if things dont get better soon then i will go back inpatient as sickening as that sounds to me. Anyway going to my suport group today maybe that will help hopefully my anxiety doesnt skyrocket while there.