[amh89]

Hi, I'm new to the forum. I've never actually been on one of these things. I have an 8th month old beautiful little girl and a boyfriend that I have been with for three years. Ever since being pregnant I have been unable to control myself. It's ruining my relationship and I literally think I am going crazy. I cry constantly and am either very pessimistic or overly optimistic. Half the time I really hate my life and the only thing keeping me going is my daughter. I am on a medication for postpardom, but am still having outrageous outbursts. Can anyone tell me what could possibly be wrong with me, or what I can do help-wise. I recently went to therapy and had a very bad experience with it and would prefer not to repeat it.

[danii24]

i cnt offer u advice i dnt no how 2 help myself without advicing other people. have u tried a different therapist i no other people on this site often said it took them awhile to find the right councillor for them

[agma]

Have you talked to your doctor....maybe the medication you are on isn't helping as much as it could.

[janeblu]

hi, i am new and live with major depression. I live in seattle, and cant find a therapist that doesnt have a heavy client list. please keep trying it has been 20 years for me it is like who i was , upbeat, always trying to make others feel better, the happy go lucky girl dissapeared, i just went to bed one day, i find it difficult to shop for therapist, luckily i have a great team of doc's who care for the physical problems but my primary physician has 5 subspecialties she is the best i have found so far, when a medication isnt working we work as a team to make decisions even if i feel i cant. you have to find another therapist, and if you ever get that gut level feeling in your solor plexis that the person you are talking to isnt really hearing you, try another. dont give up you have to keep trying , i know the feeling of "i am losing it" but it is a feeling when i realize i am functioning at all i know i am not "losing it" i would say coming to this haven of care online is the best thing you can do as well, also keep track of your moods, try to keep a journal so when you go to the next therapist you can refer to all of the moods you have good and bad and in between. i personally have come to the conclusion that we as humans are never happy all of the time, it is just that some of us fall into the deep abyss of depression, it has taken 20 years for me to find a medication that works for me without endagering my already fragile health, I think that you must find someone who really hears you not just listens, be prepared with questions of your own, remember you and your therapist should be a team working toward recovery, I do believe this illness is one we can live with and possibly have a good life at the same time, remember you are important, intelligent, and worthy of living a good life, it takes time, and so many of us are surrounded by others in the same situation for so many years, try speaking as openly as you can with your primary care doc, believe me the wrong med can make you feel worse, dont be afraid to pick up the phone and make an appointment, and from my experience one day you will find the right medication, and someone you can be open and honest with in therapy, i had a great therapist, but i did the work, isee therapist as guides on this journey and there is sooooooo much work to do, take care of your diet, walk in the sun or even on a overcast day, move about the endorphins will kick in and that helps medications work, it could be you are taking a med that is in the wrong family of meds, i was taking ssri's, zoloft, celexa, etc, what i need to heal my neurotransmitters was noreiphinephren, not so much seratonin, it made a difference, i am not healed i feel as if i am still beginning, hang in there, you can do it, please try journaling, getting the bad feelings on paper really helps. being new feels well, i feel a bit vunerable , i am not a psy professional, but just have been learning from my own pain. i hope something i said helps, remember keep tying, you are worth it.

[akekaomen]

Definitely talk to your doctor about whether the medication is the best fit for you right now. It took me a lot of trial and error to find a decent combo and even now I'm looking at maybe needing to push for another change after 5+ years on something that was working (I'm decompensating currently as noted in my post).

I also find writing things out on a forum like this helpful. It's different than a therapist and seems to just provide some relief to write it out in a place where people understand how hard things can get.