[nicoleb2]

I am in so much pain. I was in a car accident a week ago. I crashed into someone after passing out.

I have lost all independence and freedom I once had.

I am terrified to drive because I don't want to hurt someone. Doctor's have no idea what caused me to pass out. My t wants me to drive even for a short distance, but I can't do it. I don't want to hurt someone.

My husband makes comments, not intended to hurt me, but they hurt anyway (about vehicle related stuff)

I feel horrible. I can't do anything. I can't do any housework to even contribute.

I am worthless. I just got out of bed at 1pm because I didn't see the point in getting up.

I want to SI, but have managed not to so far.

I don't know what to do, where to go from here.

[Elana05]

nicoleb2,

You are not worthless. You are very important. Please be gentle with yourself.
You were just in an accident. It sounds like you are suffering from the stress and anxiety from the accident as well as depression. Do everything you can to be good to yourself and offer yourself care, as if you were caring for you, the person you were as a very small child.
I hope you begin to feel a bit better. I hope you are able to get to the doctor as well as see your therapist. Is public transportation any possibility?
I'm sorry to hear you are in such pain and hope you will keep posting...
When I was in the deepest of my pain, and trying to stay out of my head as much as possible, the best I could do was look at pictures online that were soothing. For me, it was flowers and gardens - endlessly...
Please try not to be so hard on yourself. You have been through a lot.
Sending many supportive thoughts your way.

Elana

[Rohag]

"I was in a car accident a week ago. I crashed into someone after passing out."

That's genuinely scary. On the one hand, your T's concern that you not become afraid of driving has some validity. On the other, your T is not (I suppose) a medical doctor. Diagnosis or lack of diagnosis permitting, you may still need a supported return to driving. I personally can appreciate your concern to cause no harm to others (I no longer drive).

Wishing you well, Nicoleb2

Originally Posted by nicoleb2

I am in so much pain. I was in a car accident a week ago. I crashed into someone after passing out.

I have lost all independence and freedom I once had.

I am terrified to drive because I don't want to hurt someone. Doctor's have no idea what caused me to pass out. My t wants me to drive even for a short distance, but I can't do it. I don't want to hurt someone.

My husband makes comments, not intended to hurt me, but they hurt anyway (about vehicle related stuff)

I feel horrible. I can't do anything. I can't do any housework to even contribute.

I am worthless. I just got out of bed at 1pm because I didn't see the point in getting up.

I want to SI, but have managed not to so far.

I don't know what to do, where to go from here.

It is no surprising that you feel like this, You have had a shock, Maybe you need a little time, I remember my husband quite a few years running over a dog, He was devastated for about 2 months, The dog was in a bad way but survived. He was so upset over it, You need support through this and not to be pushed back into getting back behind the wheel.

[nicoleb2]

I know that my t is suggesting that I drive, even if it's only in the parking lot because she knows me well enough to know that the longer I go without driving, the harder it is going to be.
Even knowing that, I just can't do it. I can't get behind the wheel. I can't drive.

I am getting ready now to go for about a 4 mile round trip walk to the grocery store just because I don't want to drive. I would really rather just stay in bed and hide. I don't want to do this. I just want to hide.