[plzhlp1986]

im new to this site. im severely depressed. i hate myself but i have a 2 year old daughter so i cant do anything to put myself out of my misery. i wont have her grow up thinking that she wasnt worth me trying. i dont know what to do anymore. please help

[Clare76]

I so understand yr pain. I wish i could give you a perfect answer but you know I cant.
But its so good that you are here, and you are talking.
Keep talking lovely and hopefully we can all help each other.
Sending you a huge huge hug

[roads]

Welcome to PC, plzhlp. I'm glad you found us! Besides this forum, you might like meeting up with folks on the parenting forum too:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=52

The more you can post on here the better. Start your own threads & respond to others. You & people with similar overwhelm going on in their lives will get to know you & you them. I think that will help.

These are pretty fine folks here, and they are generous with their experience. Most of it has been painfully gained. You may have figured that your precious daughter is here for a reason --if only to give you a reason right now. A lot of us have been there.

Please come back here & let us know what's going on.

[turquoisesea]

hi there to PC

hon, are you getting therapy? I can't imagine being depressed and having a child. its hard enough just fending for yourself.

are you and her father together? is he in a position to help?

don't give up there are ways to get better

[dejavu65]

Please continue to add new threads here to ask questions about whatever is on in your your mind. Add as many threads and posts as you feel you need to. Everyone here will read them and respond if they feel they can help in any way. As RoadRunner said, there are good people here and many of them have traveled down these same roads and they all want to help.

About a year ago I was having the same thoughts that you are. And my daughter was what I would focus on to get me through. She was just so innocent and I did not want to take that away from her.

If there is any way you can get some help from a doctor, that would be a really good start. I started out here like i think you did not knowing what to expect. Someone suggested that if I did not think I could see myself going directly to a Psychiatrist, then I should see my general physician and let him steer me in the right direction. I did just that. He prescribed me an antidepressant and had his nurse set up my appointment with a psychiatrist that they knew.

Early on my psychiatrist used to always end my session with "Can you tell me you will be safe?" and then he would say "If you can't do this for yourself, think of your daughter." Those words stuck in my head through my thoughts and actions when I would think I could not go one more day.

I would never tell you it is going to be easy but I hope you will give it a try.