I'm all used up...

I feel like I'm all used up. I'm burnt out, there's nothing left but self hatred, tiredness, and failure....

How long have you felt like this and have you felt like this before? I know I have, for long periods of time. But then something within me perks up and i feel somewhat recharged. Perhaps this is just a tide for you, a low point..I think it is. Hope you feel better soon

(((((((((((((( turquoisesea )))))))))))))))

Nowhere to go but up!

Where to you want to go? Where to you want to be? How do you dream of being?

Do you have a therapist to help you get there?

I don't know where I want to go (which is part of the problem). I don't know where. I dream of being content somewhere... somewhere sunny. With enough money to get by too. With my boyfriend but he's not struggling either.

I have a therapist, she does help.




((((((Siempre_nada)))))
can't put a finger on how long right now, feeling this crappy about it more recently. A month or two, with it getting worse and worse within that month, and I'm at an all time low as of Friday. (well def not all time. I've been worse and gotten better)

((((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))))



I feel so empty and useless

Be kind to you, get some rest and then you'll see that you are not a failure. (((((((( turquoisesea ))))))))

((((((( Turquoisesea! )))))))

Could these feelings in any way be related to your finishing your course of study (or is that just too plain obvious)? I agree -- you need some real rest.

((((((Turquoisesea))))))

yes school is part of it

((((melissa)))) ((((rohag))))) ((((((pegasus)))))

and one problem... is that I may not get rest... I have to make decision about where I"m living, what I'm doing next semester. i'm graduating. How can I be graduating =( starting in January, I'm on my own and either I find a way to pay rent while I apply places or I go back home

but I don't know there will be stregth to apply anywhere, or to look for a job , or to move.


I just want to sleep, and cry, and have everything stop. I don't want to do this anymore, I don't know what to do

((((turquoisesea))))

I don't say much and I read more than I speak, but I just wanted to let you know I understand about feeling sad and burned out. You're in a state of transition; the old life is about done and something new and unknown is on its way. On top of working so hard to finish and graduate it can be an overwhelming place.

I think I went through something similar when I retired from the military and transitioned to civilian life. I was grieving for my old life and scared to death of the new one. My identity was wrapped up in my uniform, and having to put that away was painful. The negative self-talk about "you'll never make it in the real world" was in full force. I did get through it though: I got a new job, moved from the East Coast to the Midwest, and now have been stable for a while. It may be different in a year or two and I may have to go through it all again, but right now I'm grateful for what I do have.

However, you're not a failure--far from it: you accomplished something that is important to your future. And it seems like it's crashing all around you right now, but when you close one door another one opens. It may not be the best one at first, but sooner or later you'll get there.

I may be wrong and I don't know if any of this will help you, but you're not the only one who's gone through this and it's not easy by any means, but it can be done. Be good to yourself and keep your chin up.

I'll go back to lurking now.

((((turquoisesea))))

((((Fharriage)))) I'm honored that you came out of lurking to give me some support - thank you

I'm glad to know I'm not alone in this... it must have been really hard for you too. I can't imagine living in military *wonders what it would be like*

I hope I can figure out what to do next, it helps.. glad you found a job and things are working.

((((Buttercup)))) thank you