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#951
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having another rough day with my depression, fear and anxiety.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand |
![]() dailyhealing, pandarama123456789, Shadow-world
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#952
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Come to realize my depressive mood had a lot to do with my work. Things are greeting progressively worse with the job and it's getting to the point where I don't want to be here any longer but i'm trapped. I have bills and expenditures that force me to stay, and I haven't had much luck looking for other work. so trapped!
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![]() Nammu, pandarama123456789, Shadow-world
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#953
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I found someone who does schema therapy in my area and I just called and sent him an email. I feel really hopeful about this. The most hope I've felt in months!!
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#954
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ARGGGH!!! He said he's not taking new patients!! ****!! What do I do?? I have to convince him!!
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#955
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I wish I could be a good friend rather than be jealous etc. I wish I could do something good for others and leave a positive mark in their lives.
Sad. Very sad.
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![]() dailyhealing, pandarama123456789, Rose76
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#956
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Woke up okay, up and down all day and now questioning the thoughts in my head. Frustrating! No appetite, no energy, can't find a reason to laugh. If I can see anything on the plus side, I have lost weight from not eating.
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![]() pandarama123456789, Shadow-world
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#957
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One step forward, two steps back.....that is how it feels today.....
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![]() dailyhealing, pandarama123456789
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#958
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#959
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I'm feeling down tonight. Not sure why exactly, but I was angry also and short with my kids. Raised my voice at them and then felt bad about that also.
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dailyhealing "Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Helen Keller Strange how people who suffer together have stronger connections than those who are most content. –Bob Dylan “If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
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#960
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#961
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I haven't posted on this thread yet - I'm disabled and can't exercise, etc., so I'm stuck inside.
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#962
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First day back at work after my sick leave. As my line manager is on leave this week, it was actually fine. I enjoyed seeing people outside our small team and saying 'hello' and I had enough emails and other tasks to catch up with to keep me busy.
However, I'm not going to make either the exercise class I normally try to do on a Wednesday nor this dating event I have signed up for to change something about my situation, as I am sooo tired after my first day back. More energy would be nice now. Well, I will do my meditation class tomorrow evening though, as I missed the previous one and this is the last class of the course.
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#963
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I am immensely frustrated with my DBT experience. They are uncommunicative with me and shrouded in secrecy from my point of view. Also disorganized. I know those are a bunch of judgments but in this case it seems to make sense to judge whether this is worth my time and money right now.
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![]() gary290, Nammu
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#964
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Our 24th birthday today so going to celebrate it on Saturday. For now, normal life routines.
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#965
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Blah! I just want the day to end!
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#966
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I'm so sleepy today
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#967
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I guess I'm okay at this particular moment. Hey, that's pretty good.
I have to be on the computer less because it makes my neck hurt. |
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#968
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Not too bad so far. Another rainy day though.
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#969
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forgot to give y'all the update but I'm feeling much better now
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#970
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Well I got feeling mad at the world. The house is full of people and I haven't had much time with Lisa. Plus working 12 hour days. The main thing that helps is the ritilan/neurontin combo. Since I quit the Lithium I'm more emotional - rageful - sexual - just more of everything. I felt depressed most of yesterday and I think that turned into anger today. Feeling better now at least. At work away from the house. But I have 3 days off. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need to start a list today of stuff I can do around the house.
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#971
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Hurting so badly.
![]() ![]() One more mention about the miracle of birth, happy baby photos or anything along those lines and I'll just lose it completely. Can't cope with it. Still not. ![]()
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![]() dailyhealing, gary290, Rose76, turquoise4
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#972
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Tomorrow I have to go for a Consultative Exam by a psychiatrist that SSA is sending me to. This has me full of anxiety about what will happen. I'll be glad when it is over.
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#973
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I really am feeling like God is telling me to leave. Everything is so temporary in my life and I can't deal with it, especially friends.
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#974
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Had an easier day today, fortunately. I managed to do things and went cycling. Even my head is still full of some mist, I'm feeling better.
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#975
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I was feeling rather emotional after a tough T session, but I'm feeling calmer and happier now. Take care everyone.
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