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Dec 27, 2011, 11:31 PM
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i feel the pain building up inside me - i'm ready to explode! it's a ball of fire in my chest, a knife tearing my heart apart. i want to cry, but my tears are used up. i want to scream but my throat is dry. i want to curl up in a ball on the couch and rock back and forth under my blanket. i want to be alone. i want a big, long bear hug from those who truly care about me. i want the world to understand what my pain really feels like. i never want that look of pity again, to never be asked if i'm sure i'm all right, yet i want my family to unerstand that my withdrawing means that i am truly in pain. i guess i really don't know what i want at all...
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 Anonymous33440, depressedalaskan, kaliope, Lexi232
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Dec 28, 2011, 08:13 PM
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My dog  mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
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Dec 28, 2011, 08:28 PM
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Curlydee, ** hugs ** for you.
You and Rohag are so good with words. Artists are born from suffering I think. Pain is so raw & deep & our own.  I'm glad you are here and posting. We try to help each other by being here. 
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Dec 28, 2011, 08:30 PM
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Sadly, I feel you..
*lots of hugs* One day it will get better... even tho i dont believe it, it's a deep reassurance built within me...
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Dec 28, 2011, 11:19 PM
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Sweetie you are not alone, i couldnt have expressed it any better its like you just said exactly howI feel. and rightnow it doesnt feel to me like it will ever stop... but I Know one day that it will.. i have faith!!!
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Dec 28, 2011, 11:38 PM
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Totally feel you....*hugs*
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Dec 30, 2011, 12:45 PM
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how do you know it will get better!?! yeah - maybe for a short period of time - but it comes back - it always comes back... the depression monster has proven that to me over and over. why do i bother? it just doesn't seem worth it any more. i just don't get life. truthfully, i don't get how any one bothers. even without depression eating me up inside - what is the reason we fight to live? to just die one day? WHAT IS THE POINT? i don't want to do this any more...
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| depressedalaskan, Lexi232
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Dec 30, 2011, 09:35 PM
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Maybe we keep fighting so we can find that place we want and seek despritly.. even tho we prolly will never ever get to that place.
And the unknown of what lays after this world... where we end up.. if its better or if its worse? ... It does come back.. especially if it never went away fully... that's where i'm at right now.. and it only keeps getting worse... I get this song stuck in my head right now.. that kinda refers to how i feel towards a person.. "...I will wait for you to find me.. but i know that you never will... I will seek to you to save me.. but I know you never will... I will try to regain passion.. but i'm faultering... I will try to overcome this.. but i'm overwhelmed, agian. Its a lovely day.. to never feel this way again.... and will i ever find... someone who understands, my mind? ... I dont think so... It's just a sea of faces, of vaccant stares.."
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