All this crap

I have attempted to start this thread at least 10 times now but I don't know why I think it sounds stupid.

Anyway I have kind of promised myself that this year will be a better year but I know deep down it will be a terrible year, My dad will be arrested anytime now and then there will be a court case, I know he deserves what is coming to him but I can't help but feel sorry for mum she isn't in good health herself.

Besides all this I feel so low right now, I miss so many people in my life, I wish I kept my mouth shut in a way then everything would be ok, The 1 friend I talked to online I lost her through my own stupid fault, I want to runaway from all this, I feel so lonely, I keep this all to myself and try to put a brave face on everyday but I find it is becoming harder, Last night everyone wishing eachother happy new year and that I thought this year is just going to be awful, I want to escape from this crap. I want my big brother back why did he have to die? why did he have to leave me? Life is so cruel.

(((((Buttercup))))) - I am sorry you are feeling so low right now - it is such a horrible place to be.

I absolutely value your input on here - the support you have given to me - don't put yourself down you are a good person.

Yes there may be some hard times that you will face in 2012 and it is easy to think of those things as black out blinds to any little ray of sunshine that may try to push through.

This year will be this year - it will come and it will go - there will be difficult times, but if we can reach out at those times we will also find goodness in the support of others.

Thinking of you this evening - hugs to you - Soup

((((Buttercup)))) So sorry you are feeling so low. Right now I don't know what to say, my mind is going in so many directions.

Thank you both so much. Soup I care a lot about you, I really hate feeling this way, I think I am just feeling sorry myself.I don't know what I would do without this site now.

Buttercup - I am so glad you are here on PC - while it is great that we can support others on here, sometimes I think it is a good thing to take a look inside ourselves and see what we need - this is a good place to be isn't it? Be kind to yourself. Soup

Oh yes it really is a good place, I feel better writing down how I feel it really does help a lot.

So am I. Your care for others and your sorrows and fears are all welcome here.

(((Buttercup)))

Sorry that you're at a low point and that you have difficult times ahead. I'm glad you're here too.

You guys are all so amazing. Thank you so much.

I second that! ((((((((((((((( Buttercup ))))))))))))))

I 3rd that! (((((((Buttercup))))))))) You don't even know how your posts have helped me. I have a hard time posting and sometimes someone else will post something exactly how I feel. So thank you for being here and being you.

Thank you all again, I feel much better today thanks to you guys