[blossom12]

I have been depressed/irritable mostly depressed for about 3 weeks (treated for bipolar and depression for 16 years). So for about 3 weeks bf has complained I am not giving enough, paying enough attention to him, acting caring enough, not trying hard enough, etc.
He has, for the first time, started readling about the disorders, but still couldnt find it in himself to be supportive and stick by me. He broke up with me last night after an on/off r/s of a year and a half.

It has not been a healthy r/s but that lessens the hurt none. I am even lower today than in the previous 3 weeks. I have a pdoc appt tomorrow.
I am so down I dont know what to do.
He makes me so mad, breaking up with me and blaming it on me in my time of need. what a jerk.

[Suki22]

I really like the phrase "if he won't accept you at your worst, then he sure as hell doesn't deserve you at your best." I feel like my depression got in the way of the last guy I dated and yes, I was sort of sad when he essentially cornered me into breaking up with him (wuss--couldn't even do it himself!), but I realized I need someone in my life that will be there for my ups and down. for better or for worse, if you will. I know what I say will not lessen your pain, but trust me, it will get better and you will continue to "date up" until you find the quality person you deserve to be with.

I hope your appointment goes well. hang in there. oh, and hugs!

[Emily_Strange]

With a boyfriend like that, who needs enemies.

After many years I learned to not take **** like that. Either he wants to be with you or he won't.

There's nothing more unromantic than "I love you baby, I miss you baby, take me back."
This is how I respond: Shoulda known those things before ya left me baby, but you didn't. Will you ever know it, unless our relationship is in that excited faze of jeopardy? You should realize how much you care for someone when they are there, as much as when they are not there.

Be strong, you deserve better. This is a time when pride is good.

[blossom12]

Thank you guys.
Today, after breaking up with me 2 days ago, he is blaming me and hinting he wants to try again.
It is time to let it die a semi-dignified death. We have recycled that r/s so many times.

I hate having to tell my kids, yet again.

the new pdoc added and med and said we would taper off of one of the others. He doesnt agree with the previous pdoc's choices. And I am glad. I am so looking forward to getting better.

And I told the ex that. He keeps reminding me of how I have made a mistake, how much I will regret this. I told him when I come out of the fog and look around, I will wonder what I have done, and where is my "soulmate", then I will remember, He left.

I am feeling stronger though.

thanks!

[taylor43]

I sorry to hear about your bf, but you do not need that kind of crap in your life. You will find someonev better and supportive. (((((((Hugs)))))))

[blossom12]

yep. a mood disorder is bad enough without someone with their own disorder screwing around with me.