[DamienV]

im 15....... im alone i don't care about school but i miss having a girl with me i miss the feeling of love a relationship i feel alone alot. i want to end it. when people see a street poll i see another place to hang myself i don't even know what im doing anymore. i don't want to be hear whats the point of living if you feel dead. i have given up i want to leave. i want to feel loved i don't even see the point of getting up everyday but sadly i do and i always come home the same. i now talk to myself i have conversations with myself i can do it for hours just look in a mirror and just see..... i don't know what i see but i put myself down alot. im scared i even have this one black coat its getting small but i can make it feel like im getting a hug from someone. i wear it everywhere. i just wish i didn't have to come to a site and talk because in real life i cant no one wants to hear me. i just wanted someone to know. thank you.

[dragonfly2]

Hi DamienV - I'm sorry you're hurting right now.

I've been where you are now. 15, feeling unloved, wanting the pain to end. I can tell you that it gets better. I never thought I'd ever have anyone when I got older. I'm 41 and have a family of my own now. But I had to be here to have it.

I know it's hard to talk to people when you're feeling like this. But you need to tell an adult in your life what you are feeling. Your parents, a grandparent, maybe an aunt or uncle...someone needs to know. You say that no one wants to hear you. That must really hurt to feel that way. I think you still need to make them hear you. Things can be better for you. You don't need to hurt anymore. But you need to tell someone.

Please, if you are able to, talk to an adult there tonight. People care about you, even if you can't see it right now.

[Marla500]

I don't have much to add, but it really does get better...please hang in there, people really do love you, and there are lots of people you haven't met yet that will love you

[dragonfly2]

Hello again DamienV,

I just want to say that I'm glad to see that you are still with us this morning (I see that you're online now). Please consider what I and others have said and talk to someone soon. If not a family member, then your school nurse, teacher, or a guidance counselor on Monday. They can help your family understand the urgency of your situation. It was a school guidance counselor who helped save my life when I was 14.

[Rose76]

You are very brave to put you heart out there in the open like that . . . to say what you feel so truthfully. Thank you for trusting us enough to tell us how it is for you.

Come back again to PC. Yes, you need to tell someone. Start with us, and then . . .

I'm sorry you lost your girl. I'll bet you could be a fine person to get to know.

Like animals in the wild, we hide when we are badly wounded.

I am real and a part of the world and I think you are worth hearing from. Others here think so too. We all really mean it.