I don't know how much longer I can go on!

Hi, sorry that I have not been to PC in a while, forgive me.
I am hurting more than words can say.
This is something that did NOT happen here on PC but another site.
See this guy was talking to me and saying sweet things to me. But he was telling me how he desperatly needed a friend seeing how he was so lonely like I am because some girl he met online hurt him deeply and she totally ignored him. So we started talking. Just today she started to talk to him cause now he is totally ignoring my messages to him and I know he is online. So I was used. I have never been good enough to have a guy, I am in my upper 30's and I am only here for men to hurt me.
I want to be dead. I am accually still planning out taking my life. Not directly but indirectly, Bottom line if God does not make major changes come the end of the month I will purchase a bus ticket and head to the woods. I HATE LIVING. There is nothing for me anymore. I feel my life is done here.
All i am good for is to be used.
You can't imagine how sad I am, how very sad I am. I am so stupid to believe that a guy would accually want to talk to me, but again I was used. Most guys my age are married or want nothing to do with me cause I am sweet.
Thank you for letting me rant about this, I need to have a good cry, I hurt so deeply, so very deeply.
being in my upper 30's and never been in love hurts more than anyone can imagine. I hope to be gone soon, really I do.
I really hope with all my heart that no one has to go through this pain ever. You all are too precious for that

You sound like you are in a lot of pain tonight. I'm sorry to hear that. Try to keep posting and we'll try to keep helping. Hang in there!

Hi Clouds and Sun ... Regection can hurt us very much, I can only imagine how you must be feeling at the moment and i guess no matter what people say to you, at this very moment, will change how you are feeling right now!!! But, be kind to yourself... after what he has done , really!!! do you think he is worth all the emotional pain and heart ache you are now going through. Try to be the better person in this situation, as after reading your post, honestly ,i really do not feel he is WORTHY of you... NOT AT ALL !!! Remember the saying ... one door closes and another door opens, It does not allways happen straight away, but it does. Try to talk yourself through this, eg this has happened, its not your falt, you will find soneone else that will be more suitable for you and yes it's hard times for you now , but eventually all these dreadful feelings will pass, PLEASE remember that, won't you, if you want to talk you can talk to me anytime you wish... BE KIND TO YOURSELF !!!

Bless your heart ~ I wish I could give you a hug right how! I know what you're feeling, cause I've been hurt like that before. The pain you're feeling is AWFUL. It goes to the very bone. It feels like it will NEVER go away --- but it will. It goes away slowly - but it goes away. Thank God.

This guy was a "user." He used you until this other girl came back. A lot of guys pull this kind of stuff. They find girls susceptible to their kind of talk, and they pull them into their 'web.' They're like spiders. They trap these girls, and then attack. Then after they've used them long enough, they get rid of them. They don't care what kind of damage they've done.

Instead of being hurt, get angry, and use the anger to make sure this never happens to you again. Try not to believe EVERYTHING a guy tells you -- you never know when they're handing you some line of stuff. LOL

You sound like a very sweet, caring, loving woman --- someone we'd all like to know. You're an ASSET to this world, and we'd ALL be worse off if you were not IN this world. Please don't think about leaving --- it would be tragic. Besides, have you ever considered that it's a FACT that God has a plan for you? He has had plans for ALL of us, and He does for YOU too. Some plans come to fruition sooner than others. Sometimes you have to wait longer. But don't leave until the miracle happens. PLEASE!!!

I wish you the very best -- and please keep posting -- we're always here. God bless you and please take care. Big hugs ((( )))) Lee

((((((((((((((( clouds and sun ))))))))))))))

Right now I know there is nothing I can say to you that will make it go away, but I really want you to know that I am thinking about you and hoping that you realize that this is not YOU, that it is them. People can be thoughtless & that is a reflection on them not you. You are wonderful just as you are.
Keep posting, keep talking, keep being exactly who you are. I as others I am sure will be here.

Many huge hugs
Nams

In the midst of your torment, you seek others' good.
((((((( Clouds_and_Sun! )))))))

You are worthy. You will find the right person. I'm terribly sorry to hear how your self-esteem has been damaged. Be kind to yourself right now. You can move past this. I am guessing you have been hurt before and you got through it. Keep posting as it is clear people want to hear from you.

Thank you all so very much. You all are full of such love and logic. I have been sleeping a lot today to escape the pain. I have been sleeping a lot lately.
I want to say that your words has helped out.
I love you all.
(((((hugs))))

Hang in there! We've all been used before. You WILL get through this. This situation is not a reflection on you but on him for how poorly he treated you. You will find someone when you least expect it. You love yourself and others will love you too. You are the only you there ever will be and someone will be lucky to find you someday. There are not that many sweet people left. Take care!

Please hang in there!

(hope you read my post before I deleted it)

I just went thru about 5 years of trying to break free of a 17 year marriage where I felt just like you. But this is about you not me.
I started watching some of the online ministries on tv. It really helps. Mike Murdoch's wisdom keys are great. One that stuck in my head is:
Rejection is divine removal of a potential problem.