[cbreeze22]

i can't believe i feel like this or think like this. i don't know how i got this low. i don't have to deal with a lot of the things other people do - my kids are really pretty good, material essentials are in place, no siblings to argue with, no job so no evil boss or coworkers. I have pretty good physical health, as do my kids, despite a couple of chronic conditions (thankfully mild end of spectrum for us both). No addiction issues for me or my mother (never knew dear old dad).

How dare I be depressed? Especially after meds and therapy? How dare I be sitting here right now fighting off these urges and thoughts?

I think this is why that therapist was so annoyed with me. I don't have the right to my own diagnosis.

(((((cbreeze22)))))

It is a mistaken belief that you can only be depressed if your life is filled with stressors. If the depression is chemical in nature, then it can happen to anyone...even those who, to others, seem like they shouldn't be depressed.

There is no "right" to be depressed, we do not earn this label. It is what it is. If you are depressed, please don't feel guilty about it. Accept it as reality, and move forward. What can help? If you are on medication, perhaps a change in dosage could help. If not, maybe starting medication would help. Some people need to stay on medication for the rest of their lives, and there's nothing wrong with that. I am one of those people, and I accept this.

Therapy can also be very beneficial, if you are not already seeing a therapist. They are professionals, and shouldn't be annoyed at you for feeling depressed. As I said previously, it is not your fault.

[Callmebj]

melissa is right with her response.
I believe some illnesses can be hereditary. Chemical imbalance can play a role. I thought it interesting that you never knew your Dad. Do you possibly have some issues to his not being on the scene? Just guessing and throwing things out there.
hugs, bj