[meltedskydiver7]

have lost everything. 10 year marriage, hardly see my kids, still think my step ( x step ) kids are mine and they dont talk to me. cant drive, have warrants out for outstanding tickets that i cant pay do to being poor. live with mom, heck my bedroom does not even have a door. clean whole house, and pretty soon outside will be my problem to. just dropped my kids of back at their moms and am crying so hard and cant stop. i dont know what to do am hoping that doc got meds rt this time. just got serequel increased from 200mg to 300mg and celexa from 20mg to 40mg. am multi diagnosed. bp with mania and rapid cycling, sever anxiety, and depression. all come down to a lethal combo. also finally got a therapist every thur so maybe all this adjustments will help just need to talk to people going through same shxx as me to help get through till new meds kick in and therapist starts helping. hope thats where yall come in. i have no one else. at all. no one else.

sry so lengthy

[Caretaker Leo]

I am so glad you are here and willing to pour all of your pain out.

For now, please believe that your life is worth something and that there are people who care about you even if you haven't met them yet.

So many of us here have seen the bottom that you are seeing now. Yet, reaching out has saved many of us.

Please keep posting. Find the best forums to express yourself. The PC community cares.

[Rohag]

Hello, Meltedskydiver7!

Have you considered calling a crisis line for immediate help, or calling AIRS-United Way (in USA) for non-emergency help?

Yours is an exceedingly difficult situation. If at all possible find extra help to get through. Please keep posting.

[Callmebj]

Hi Meltedskydiver7, Rohag has an excellent idea for your right-now time. I am so happy to hear that you are going to see T and that you are starting some newer medications that may take a bit of time for you to feel the effects of as you know. Hang in there and keep posting on here; you've got lots of empathetic people who will read and reply to you and do their darnedest to up-lift you till you are able to do your own lift-ups.
Take Care and blessings to you in this time of pain. Hugs, bj

[gma45]

Hi Meltedskydiver7, You do have a lot on your plate right now, please try not to let your self get to depressed. I am sure your kids need you and want to be in your life even if they can't right now. It does take a while for meds to work, hang in and post often it does help. I know it was and pretty much still is all I have when it comes to talking to someone and getting my feelings out. There are people that do really care don't forget that. We just have to take things as they come and try your best to resolve your problems one at a time. Take care

[growlycat]

Keep posting...pc is a great place because no one understands better than someone who has been "there". Everything doesn't have to be solved overnight. You are already taking good steps, a T will be a good ally, you won't be alone.

[Butterflies Are Free]

Keep writing - we are here for you.