Just a vent.

I've never realized how alone I actually I am. I don't have any close friends. I don't have any friends to call on the weekends and make plans with. I've never had a real relationship with a boy. I'm too afraid to talk to my parents about anything. I only talk to my older brother every couple of months.

Everyone expects so much out of me. My mom wants me to be a nurse. My friends think I could be a model. My teacher has told me I'm supposed to be in an honors class. But I don't care about any of this. I just want people to love me for who I am without judging or trying to change me. But I doubt that will ever happen. I want this pain to go away.

I will always be alone. I don't care about anything anymore, just dying.

I wish someone would take the time to actually talk to me. My mom has given up on trying to figure out what's wrong. My friends and teachers don't even notice.

I've never felt more alone in my entire life.
It's amazing how you can go to school and sit in a room full of people your age and feel so alone and lost.

I am so sorry you feel this way. I remember thinking these things too when I was in school (especially high school -what a horrible time that was)... I wish I had some advice to give you. Some words that will make all that you are going through easier. Our illness is hard for those who have never gone through it to understand. It makes us seem... distant? Do you have a councilor at school you can talk to? Or maybe speak to your family doctor? There are some great therapy programs out there that can help.

In the meantime the people on here are really great and friendly. You can always talk here and you are never alone

Hi. I, too, am sorry you feel that way. And yes, I also share the same experience. But one thing I realized is that people who know us actually love us. We just don't give them a chance to show that they do care for us. Everywhere we go, we meet new faces and these encounters give us the opportunity to know other people.

I think you have to love and feel good about yourself because when you do, you allow others to love you, too. Sometimes, we are the only ones who are making our lives too difficult. I'd like to go back to what I've mentioned earlier, "We just don't give them a chance to show that they do care for us". Why is this? I think it's because we are blocking their way towards knowing and loving us. You are feeling alone and lost because you are allowing yourself to feel that way.. We are humans and being so means being lucky that we were given the power to think of what's best for us.

I know this is really hard to overcome but I believe there's a way out of this. Feel good about yourself. Busy yourself with doing the things that could help you achieve your fullest potential. Be the best person you can be because life is too short and unpredictable. We never when it's going to end.

I hope this will help you. Pardon my grammar, though

Oh my, I just posted a reply to your post. I am new here in Psych Central so I am not familiar with it the way others are. I clicked 'Post Quick Reply' but I didn't see my post and so I have to do it again.

I, too, am sorry you feel that way. And yes, I also share the same experience and it really is difficult to overcome but I know there's a way out of this. And I am working on it.

Sometimes, we are the only ones who are making our lives too difficult. I think you are feeling alone and lost because we are allowing yourself to feel that way. Life is about making choices. If you choose to be sad, life won't be selfish to give it to you and same is true when you choose to be happy.

I believe that people who know us actually love us. We just don't give them a chance to show they care for us. One factor could be that we think we are not worth loving. You have to love yourself more than anyone else and you have to feel good about yourself because when you do, people will love you, too. Busy yourself by doing things that could help you achieve your full potentials. Focus on where you are good at and strive to be the best person you can be. Life is too short and unpredictable. We never know when it's going to end. We are human beings and being so means being lucky that we were given the power to think of what's best for us.

Sometimes, the helping and healing should come from us. It feels good when someone finds time to help you but everything is up to us. Always choose to be happy Your family and friends love you, that's for sure. And regarding the expectations you are getting from them, just let them talk. If you can't stop them, just hear what they're saying but don't listen to it. If you know what you really want in life and who you want to be in the future, you shouldn't get affected.

I hope this helps. Pardon my grammar

I remember a time when I felt like that. It was during my attempt at college, where everyone was so much younger than I was. I felt like an old coot and that I didn't belong.

Please take comfort that you are definitely not alone here. Use this site. Play the games. Join the groups. Post your thoughts and feelings wherever and whenever you can to get out those feelings.

I am currently feeling lost, like I don't belong anywhere and I found a place here. But if there is a counselor at your school it would be a good idea to talk to him/her because it really could help, you just have to let people in and give them a chance. Its easier said than done for people like us. I know for me the bi-polar can either make me the life of the party or the outcast in the corner.

It's tough but you're not alone.

Thank you all for your responses. I read them all, and they have put me in a good mood today
Thanks again.