I have been so depressed for so long I almost forgot what this feels like but you know what? I am happy!!

Unfortunately it's not because I've been working really hard at self-help stuff or progressing in my therapy or anything like that. I just met someone and felt an instant click with them.

There have been only about 4 people who are my support system of friends right now. I have been so lonely I've OD'd on therapists. I paid one guy just to have someone to talk to for an hour so I could relieve some of the burden on my friends and it still wasn't enough.

I was having suicidal ideation as recently as tonight. Now I feel all !

I know I have to go slow but I have already told him a bit about my struggles with depression and he didn't run away. He told me about his recent messy divorce so I guess it's clear we both have issues, eh?

But wow. Just wow. For the first time in 6 months I think I have actual happy chemicals running through my brain that are NOT caused by some artificial substance! I'm not even gonna drink tonight. I'm gonna eat something instead. Something good for me. I can get through the weekend now.

[Leed]

Isn't it great???? Gosh, I hope it continues! I'm so happy for you! I'll keep my fingers & toes crossed! (ouch )

Keep us posted, ok? Sending prayers your way for continued healing! God bless! Hugs, Lee

[Touch of gray]

It's very startling when it happens, isn't it? I just got there this week 'cuz the meds kicked in.

Stay strong. Stay with the feeling - enjoy it, revel in it. Each time a hurtful thought or a doubt pops up, tell it NO! even if it's just a little one. That's the depression talking, but You're in control now. Don't let the downward spiral even get started.

Sounds good. It'd sure be sweet if it works.

[doggiedo]

Me too-ditto on the medicine finally kicking on. Take things slow and hope it stays

[roads]

Tis wonderful, Lillylillie! hard to believe anything will work till it does. Keep posting, let us know that it stays real for you.

And if it fades or goes altogether, dont panic. Happened to me too but it came back and settled in as the feelings increased and stabilized. Lasted about a week all-in-all.

Roadie

[Fuzzybear]

[Mogeii]

Its a super weird experience isnt it? Doesnt matter how many times we go down into the dark valley, we are always positive this time nothing can bring us out. but something always does. even if it only gives us the glimpse you talked about. Hope things only get better for you!