[Music Rules Me]

All I do is eat, drink, smoke, shag and self injure.
This loop is going to kill me.

I keep getting an urge to run away.
To pack up everthing of value (that I could sell) and leave.
And never come back.

I hate this life.

I can feel that my time might be coming soon. Not that I'd end it myself. Just an inkling that I'm getting that the world is going to be done with me shortly.

I'm just so scared.

[sweathers81]

I can see that your hurting. I wish that there was something i could tell ya, but i don't know anything about self injury. I know that when your stuck in a rut its hard to get out of and try to see any positive. Have u ever thought about switching things up. Do things a little different. Maybe talking a walk a see your surrounds will help to give you motivation to change things. Do you see anyone, a therapist or Dr. Maybe they could help. Best wishes to ya :-)