More family stuff

Had another family party today- my godson's 1st birthday

But it also meant spending the entire day with my family and staying at my parents house- still here now. I'm taking time for myself and am out on the patio with my iPad "reading a book" while they watch tv.

My mom has a ton of issues with my family members and was stressed aboiut going. She thinks my cousin gave her some sarcasm but it's all in her head. I think she's being too sensitive but I'd be damned if I tell her that bc she won't listen to reason.

My parents are always talking and are now watching tv so loud (they are getting older). I just need a break. I think I'm so used to living by myself now and enjoying my quiet time...here I don't have that time to decompress and I feel like i have to be "on" all at the time. It makes me wanna scratch my eye balls out..literally.

Anyow, I don't wanna complain but I could use some support or suggestions on how to get thro the evening and into tomorrow afternoon. Its a big trigger for me...and I know on sunday night I'll be in a down place...just as a reaction to the weekend. Sigh...

Congratulations on you godson's first birthday!
This is a part of my own experience of depression/anxiety. I'll "manage" through some sort of stressful event only to "pay for it" later.

Regarding the rest of this evening, the last part of this article deals with emotional shielding techniques. I don't know whether or not they'll be of help.

I can relate. Going to my parents (when they were still alive) was always a trigger for me too.

Just keep thinking that by tomorrow afternoon, you'll be AWAY from all this. You'll finally have some peace! Try to take it a minute at a time if you have to. That's what I used to do. And I found myself watching the clock too. LOL But it got me thru, and I didn't have as big a crash when I got home.

I also kept thinking about a special place we used to visit when I was a kid. It was beautiful -- it was on the shores of one of the Great Lakes, and I'd picture it in the evening, when the moon was out and the waves were a bit bigger. Just beautiful. It gave me some peace for a bit.

Take care and I hope you sleep well. God bless. Hugs, Lee

Thanks for sharing the article Rohag. I think in some ways I do some of those techniques, but some are new.

Leed, I also tried to take your advice and "got away" - I took my kindle and just went to bed early to relax without listening to them talking or the tv onion the background. It was good, and I slept great that night. On Sunday, I got outside and did a few hours of gardening, which was also therapeutic.

Then, when I get back home I always feel so guilty that I don't appreciate them more. I feel guilty for wishing the weekend away and for me to be back alone in my apartment and way from them. They are wonderful people and I often feel like I don't deserve them.