[Littlefish]

I m on the way of recovery, and it is getting better recently just still very unstable in daily life and sleep ...my mom came to see me 2 days ago and released a lot words on me again, and let me feel i m a trash again, then she left......i m trying to get my head move, i dont feel so sad anymore as i used to , and i realize no matter how hard i try , i can never please her, never satisfy her, she always and already feels i m a trash, this idea is so deeply in her minds....
I m not sad, but she said a lot words and we had some unpeaceful discussion as usual, my head is now in a strange situations, no chaos, no pain, no joy, no feelings...i dont know what it is,
but i m trying to do some work and to figure out some things, it just cant work,
i m wondering is it the brain chemical short-term stuck?
it will be okay by itself?

[girl14]

Hi, I have dealt with very similar situation, (i.e.)--family think my brother is perfect and me--well--every thing you can think of that had some sort of comparrison, or negative jab to it...I have heard it..So myself, I also am trying hard to recover, with all of those negative jabs ingrained in my brain, like they are carved in there so deep...It gets very frustrating when u climd 3 steps up only to fall back a few more..Try real hard to lokk at what you believe yourself to be, and any positive feedback from friends, etc...You don't have a choice in who your family is...but atleast we can choose our friends, etc...and they are usually the ones who see the real us.......geez I hope this helps....

[Rohag]

Hello, Littlefish!

Originally Posted by Littlefish

i m wondering is it the brain chemical short-term stuck?
it will be okay by itself?

I think so. You have just had a traumatic interaction with your mother. It is as if she knocked you down. You will be able to get up, but it will hurt for a while.

While you are recovering, is it possible to avoid further meetings with your mother?

[Idiot17]

Mom acts same way, its unbearable.

[Littlefish]

I see....but i still need to meet her sometimes, not very often.
I also have another question, it is so weird that when i try to clean the old things, then i also get stuck.....something is stopping me, i dont know how to make my energy move, and can finish cleaning them,---the old furnitures, clothing, old books etc...
i dont have feelings for the furnitures and clothing,
but i feel something stops me is still related to old emotion or hurts,
and if so, i still need to clean those emotions....but i really dont know what they r anymore, i feel i m okay with that already...or i m numb?