[HopeLost]

The depression is getting me. THIS time I have to fight harder. I don't want to be where I was at the beginning of the year and essentially stopped functioning. I am feeling more and more....not wanting to do my sports training. Not socializing. Hiding in my house in the dark.

I am tired from fighting with my job....of course that played some part. The fight is not over with them. At some point I have to go back....meanwhile I am frantically searching for jobs.

I don't want to get beat by this depression....

[Leed]

If you don't want to get beat then you must keep fighting. Are you in therapy? If you're not, can you start? Can you afford it?

If you can't afford it, can you see your doctor? He can put you on medication at least temporarily until you CAN get into therapy. I know we don't WANT to be on medication, but it does HELP!! I have to be on it cause while therapy helped, it just didn't bring me out of the 'pits'. I guess they called it 'clinical' depression. So I need it forever, darn it. Anyway, I feel "normal" -- whatever that is. I can function on an even keel without the highs & lows and I feel "good." Maybe you should try it.

Anyway please try to get some help. I wish you the very best. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[Shadow-world]

I can very much relate, HopeLost.
It sounds as if you are in a similar work situation to the one I am in. I find if extremely hard to keep fighting. We need to. We'll find a job in which we can be happy!
I just wish things were easier for us.

All the best to you!

[misscath007]

Sending huggs & hope that you are having a better day today...I can relate.

[HopeLost]

Thank you all. Today was better. I do have a doctor and therapist. I am hoping to start an out patient program this week. Lets hope. I am striving to make my work situation better as well.