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Apr 22, 2006, 06:10 PM
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I have been reading this message board on and off for several weeks and decided maybe it was time for me to share a little about myself. I have been struggling with what I was told is major depression for the past 5 years. ( i am 24) I have been off and on meds, usually quitting them myself b/c I dont think they work, and then starting back on something else. I have been taking Lexapro 20mg and Welbutrin 150 for about 3 months now and decided they were not working. Last week i quit them and this week I feel like I am losing my mind! Been having horrible thoughts and dreams, anxiety, blurry vision, dizziniss, and a strange taste in my mouth. And then what I guess was an anxiety attack last sunday. Have not been to a pdoc before and my doctor now doesnt know if i have depression or maybe bipolar. I have no idea but I just wanted to say hello and be able to talk about this stuff- My husband hates to hear how i feel- he thinks I am just weak because I get so down. He doesn't understand me. I dont even understand me!!!
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#2
Apr 22, 2006, 06:30 PM
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Welcome Joyous. It usually is not the best idea to stop taking AD suddenly. You may consider seeing a pdoc who can help you get on the right meds and confirm your dx. I hope you start to feel better. I would suggest at least calling your doc and asking what you should do to wean off the meds. Take care and good luck.
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Apr 22, 2006, 06:33 PM
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Welcome. I 'm sorry to hear you are having trouble stablizing with antidepressants. Maybe your system takes longer for a good effect? Of course, meds begin working as soon as you put them into the system, but some of us do have probs... some ppl take a much longer time for them to build up. Did you quit your meds under a doctor's care? With the new meds, the way they affect the brain ..you can't just go off them like you might have with others! Please take one, and call your doctor! If you are the one deciding how you will take meds, then that could be why your doctor can't decide upon a dx, imo.
Welcome, again. I hope you find good support here, and some answers to your questions. 
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Apr 22, 2006, 06:41 PM
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I don't have much to add, I just wanted to say hi and welcome!
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Apr 22, 2006, 06:55 PM
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Thanks for everyone's responses!
I started feeling better about 4 or 5 weeks after i started the meds. Then suddenly out of no where I had a horrible week and felt they were doing nothing for me. Waited it out, nothing got better, so I quit everything all at once last week . Yeah, that was so stupid- I know that now! My doc and I are in the process of finding a pdoc that will take my ins. THis has been going on for a while now and my doc didnt realize how bad i was until i was at my nutritionist yesterday and she called my doc right in front of me to tell her i was talking about suicide. (Can i say that on here?) THank u all for your support- I know what I need to do- Just keep procrastinating. |
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Apr 22, 2006, 07:01 PM
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Take a pill and wean back off gently? I'm sorry you are feeling so alone in this. Feeling suicidal is a symptom from the PTSD... it's real, but isn't quite the same as depression suicidality, imo. TC.
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Apr 22, 2006, 11:19 PM
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Welcome Joyous! Sometimes the ones closest too us have a hard time understanding but like you said and I have said myself I don't understand it either. Look forward to getting too know you!
HUGS Cher
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Apr 23, 2006, 03:11 AM
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Welcome to PC Joyous. I had a very hard time with my husband and wanting, much less needing him to understand what was happening to me. When you do get to see a pdoc, perhaps you could ask your husband to go with you? I did that, and just hearing of the "clinical" things happening to me, he backed up a bit.
As for the meds, I am med free by choice but I do agree with the others - please take care.
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Apr 23, 2006, 09:28 AM
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 I also agree with the AD. When I have had to switch, my pdoc has a specific schedule for weehing. Sometimes you have to try different ones to find the one that works for you. Also, they say it takes 4-6 weeks to feel the full effect. My H wasn't supportive at first either. I think it's difficult for them to see us unhappy and don't understand why they can't help us. Men like to fix things and this is something that they can't fix, they can only support. My H also used to say "why can't you just get over it" I used to get so angry at him for that. Like, don't you think I would if I could? Duh! I hope you find comfort here. I know that I have, even when no one can help. A simple heart is like knowing you have a guardian angel and someone who cares. Again, Welcome, Songbird
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Apr 23, 2006, 11:27 AM
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my first husband told me that "it" was all in my "head"........
    i think that is the general M.O. of someone who doesn't understand our diseases.
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Apr 23, 2006, 12:54 PM
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Right on the money, Songbird. We're fixers, and when we can't fix things, we take it as a personal failure.
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Apr 24, 2006, 07:56 PM
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You are so right! If I were a weak person, I wouldnt be reaching out for help! They just dont understand how scary it is to wake up and not be able to control thier feelings. Wouldnt wish any of that on a worst enemy....well maybe I can think of one!
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Apr 24, 2006, 08:21 PM
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JustBen,
Do you think, in your opinion, that a gentle reminder that "I just need you to listen. This is something that you can't fix, even though I know you want to?" is a healthy and helpful approach to this type of circumstance? Would a supporting male companion, or even one that is trying to be supportive, be able to accept that? SongBird
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