[day2day]

Really I do not know why my life feels so hard? I get up and do the routine, walk the dog, have a cup of coffee, watch some really hard to hear news. And I just don't feel anything but pain, hurt, low energy, want to crawl back into bed. I can't think of anything I want to do or that would make me feel better. I feel like I am only causing harm and pain to my partner and my family. I'm so sick of this. No money, no job, no friends that keep in touch. I don't really give a **** any more.
I had to stop working because I caused some much more work for others when I tried to do a job. And now at home I am doing the same for my partner. Whatever I seem to do is not what others feel I should be doing.
Ok so I vented today will go on.
I can't wait to see my phys doctor and get these damn meds straightened out. These are not working.

[Rohag]

Hello, Day2day. No question, life is rough, depression is rough and sometimes intolerable, and the two together...

You have a psychiatrist and therapists, yes? Have you spoken with a vocational counselor, perhaps someone with an understanding of depression, and laid out for them your real employment experience? Might someone like that have genuinely practical suggestions?

In any case, I think your vent was very concise. Please go ahead and cover the page if it will help.

[shezbut]

I'm sorry that you're feeling miserable

You may want to avoid watching and/or reading the news. I have to do that! The world just feels so depressing to me nowadays, I can't stand it. I do become suicidal when people are talking about the sad and crazy things always happening in this world. I was pretty surprised that my T recommended that I stay away from the news, as I thought that was an unhealthy thing. But his perspective is that the world news is depressing & it triggers strong urges in me.

I hope that your doc is able to find the right med combo and dosage for you soon. Gentle hugs sent your way...

[jlmass]

Hope you are feeling a little better today.