[falling star]

I don't know what is happening. Im loosing everyone. I have lost my family (not to death) and some friends. I'm falling into a depression. I need help but i don't know what to do. No one can help me..i have to do it. But my brain doesn't work right. It has too much emotion. Which internally is depression and externally is isolation. This is the only place i can think of to go. I went to see a counselor and he says its good you are processing things. It didn't really help.. Ive always thought a lot and tried to analyze and process. I can't get it together. so stuck. falling crashing

[regretful]

This is a supportive place, and I hiope that you find the help you are looking for. The too much emotion might be due to something that I'm guilty of (as are most people that are depressed) - ruminating. Perhaps you can revisit the counselor and ask that person for more direct suggestions on how to deal with depression. You might also consider medication. I fought the med idea for quite some time, but now that I'm taking it, I am feeling the benefits.

[missbelle]

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. Continue with your Counselor. Losing family and friends for whatever reason is indeed difficult. You begin to feel like an orphan.
Hopefully you can take little baby steps and get out a little more. Your counselor might also have a support group going, or know of one. It can be rather easy to make a friend or two in the support group.
Yes, when we are depressed our brain definately does not work right, and even a little decision can be hard to make. If you have a hobby, or know of a book group you might want to get involved with people that have similar issues. A book group at the library can also be a great way to meet people, and not feel threatened.

Hoping you feel better!

[tiggerunner]

I am so very sorry. I am going through the same thing, but I have been through this before and know I will and you too make it work.Sometimes it is good to go to another counselor and I am not a fan of meds, but have used them to get over the top and they really work for many people. Do ONE thing today just for you. You are Loved.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by regretful

This is a supportive place, and I hiope that you find the help you are looking for. The too much emotion might be due to something that I'm guilty of (as are most people that are depressed) - ruminating. Perhaps you can revisit the counselor and ask that person for more direct suggestions on how to deal with depression. You might also consider medication. I fought the med idea for quite some time, but now that I'm taking it, I am feeling the benefits.

Or possibly a different counselor? One size does NOT fit all when it comes to counselors ~therapists......

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by falling star

I don't know what is happening. Im loosing everyone. I have lost my family (not to death) and some friends. I'm falling into a depression. I need help but i don't know what to do. No one can help me..i have to do it. But my brain doesn't work right. It has too much emotion. Which internally is depression and externally is isolation. This is the only place i can think of to go. I went to see a counselor and he says its good you are processing things. It didn't really help.. Ive always thought a lot and tried to analyze and process. I can't get it together. so stuck. falling crashing

Hi falling star.....So sorry that you're suffering ~going through a lot of difficult stuff. I know very well how hard it is to loose people you were close to, as my so-called family "threw me out" several years ago now, and many of my friends aren't around anymore either. Not wanting to argue, but when you say "no one can help me", that sure sounds like the voice of depression....and it's simply not true. While it isn't always easy to find the right caring people to help (the right fit for you)....and I know it can be really frustrating at times, and of course hope can be ~often is elusive....as long as there are people out there who you haven't met yet, there is hope. I realize you might not believe this (I suppose most of us know about that), but hope exists, and our inability to see any perspective on this is just a part of our crappy gig. I sure do hope some relief comes to you soon, and that you'll let us know, good or bad. (But I'm hoping it's good for you.) Take care..... ps....Maybe sometime you could try another counselor? You never know, I had to try a few before I found the awesome one that I have now

[falling star]

Thank you for responding. My aunt called me a liar and said I need professional help. That hurt. I didnt lie to her, but she wont believe .me. After a few painful texts she sent me I blocked her from sending any more or being able to call me. She probably has my aiater believing the samw thing. I guess when someone calls another names, they tend to believe it.

[falling star]

Thank you for responding. My aunt called me a liar and said I need professional help. That hurt. I didnt lie to her, but she wont believe .me. After a few painful texts she sent me I blocked her from sending any more or being able to call me. She probably has my sister believing the same thing. I guess when someone calls another names, they tend to believe it. There is more to all this, but needless to say, relationship over. Dont think my counselor really cares.

keep posting on here.

it will help

[regretful]

If you don't think your counselor really cares, then confront them with that thought/perception/feeling. It's perfectly okay to tell them something like "you remind me of all the other people in my life who appear not to care", then see where it goes. The beauty of therapy is that it is an artificial relationship - by that, I mean you are meeting with someone who you likely would not have met in real life, who you don't have to respond to on a daily basis, etc. Therefore, practice in therapy what you are having trouble with in "real life". I have been on both sides of the couch (as a clinician and a patient). As a clinician, I always would appreciate it when a patient/client was brutally honest with me about my skills.

I do wish you well...and that was a great idea to block your aunt's texts.

Originally Posted by falling star

Thank you for responding. My aunt called me a liar and said I need professional help. That hurt. I didnt lie to her, but she wont believe .me. After a few painful texts she sent me I blocked her from sending any more or being able to call me. She probably has my sister believing the same thing. I guess when someone calls another names, they tend to believe it. There is more to all this, but needless to say, relationship over. Dont think my counselor really cares.

[falling star]

Originally Posted by regretful

If you don't think your counselor really cares, then confront them with that thought/perception/feeling. It's perfectly okay to tell them something like "you remind me of all the other people in my life who appear not to care", then see where it goes. The beauty of therapy is that it is an artificial relationship - by that, I mean you are meeting with someone who you likely would not have met in real life, who you don't have to respond to on a daily basis, etc. Therefore, practice in therapy what you are having trouble with in "real life". I have been on both sides of the couch (as a clinician and a patient). As a clinician, I always would appreciate it when a patient/client was brutally honest with me about my skills.

I do wish you well...and that was a great idea to block your aunt's texts.

SO it was a good idea? i felt better yesterday, but bad today because im not that kind of person. Ive never blocked anyone before. I wrote my sister a happy birthday text, but she didn't respond, so she prob. isn't talking to me..I sent her a card yesterday too. just feel lonely.

[regretful]

Lonliness is certainly something that affects many that are depressed. I know that it hits me at times. When I'm depressed, it's a conundrum...I want to be around people because I know it would make me feel better, but I don't want anyone to see me when I'm depressed...If someone is sending nasty texts to you, block them. I am of the belief that relationships are better understood in person anyway. With texts, email, etc. I never know if a person understands the nuances of language and communication that are intended (or not intended) to be conveyed. See if you can reconcile with your sister/aunt, but try to do so in person. Best wishes to you.