[kebsfroggy]

Maybe it wasn't just another day but it sure felt that way.

As I looked in the mirror this morning there were no tears streaming down my cheeks but then there wasn't a smile either. Just, well just absolutely nothing.

Oh I had my to do list for today. I write one each night hoping it will provide somethinng to look forward to. But as often happens tonight it is the exactly same list. Nothing has changed only tonight I won't have to write a list.

It's been so many years now that I can even remember the last day I awoke looking forward to morning. I feel scattered to the four winds with a hurricane on the horizon. Where are my friends? Did I ever even have friends? What happened to the plans I had for the future? Did I even have plans for the future?

That image in the mirror this morning staring back didn't have a past or future, just empty nothingness.

[Rohag]

Your poetic prose is always moving, dear Kebsfroggy. How sad to employ it to frame such thoughts.

I, too, find depression an atemporal cancer. It eats away at our present then metastasizes to both past and future.

And in your case a "cure" fed that metastasis.

((((((( Kebsfroggy! )))))))

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by kebsfroggy

Maybe it wasn't just another day but it sure felt that way.

As I looked in the mirror this morning there were no tears streaming down my cheeks but then there wasn't a smile either. Just, well just absolutely nothing.

Oh I had my to do list for today. I write one each night hoping it will provide somethinng to look forward to. But as often happens tonight it is the exactly same list. Nothing has changed only tonight I won't have to write a list.

It's been so many years now that I can even remember the last day I awoke looking forward to morning. I feel scattered to the four winds with a hurricane on the horizon. Where are my friends? Did I ever even have friends? What happened to the plans I had for the future? Did I even have plans for the future?

That image in the mirror this morning staring back didn't have a past or future, just empty nothingness.

Hi kebsfroggy.....So sorry about your continued struggles. Your words ring so true to me also. As I tend to feel better later in the day, I couldn't count on all the fingers in the world how many times I have made a list at night of things to accomplish the following day, only to wake up in the morning feeling so dead inside that I can't even get so far as to look at the list, let alone go any further. Sigh. Very frustrating, to be sure. Sending wishes for better times......

[missbelle]