Wishing for bad things to happen.

I feel kind of stuck in a rather negative mindset, well more negative than usual. Anyways is their any explanation for just wanting bad things to happen? but then at the same time being worried bad things will happen.....but like it can't get much worse so bad things might as well happen.

That is the best way I can describe it...but its bothering me I guess. I mean its kind of random like I might be walking across the street and have the thought 'maybe someone driving through will run me over.' but then it turns into 'they may as well.' Not sure if this is specifically a depression thing or more of an anxiety or ptsd thing since I have both of those disorders to.

Perhaps the proliferation of negative thoughts is a reflection of your real-life situation. Were I in the situation you have described in other posts, I would be susceptible to the frequent intrusion of such thoughts, too.

Different folks have different advice for dealing with negative thoughts. Some like to fight them head-on with thought-stopping techniques. I prefer acknowledgement-and-release approaches (example from PC). All techniques have their limitations, though. May you find something that works, and may your circumstances improve.

Unfortunately I get those feelings quite often...today I was driving home beside a truck and was thinking if it fell over my car and I died then it would be a blessing. I see them as mild suicidal thoughts associated with depression. I've been dealing with depression for about 10 years now. There is a certain length that people will go to take their own lives and I would never take action and have never planned anything. It shows how much depression can make people feel worthless.