[alone in the world]

New day same feelings. have to leave home today for several hours and I am very anxious. still not understanding my purpose her in life. keep asking myself that question but do not have the answer. Don't know why I can not take pleasure in the girls I have raised 2 are adults and doing well. the challenge is still home, a middle schooler. I think that responsibility is what keeps me just questioning my purpose, she lost her father at 2 so I am really all she has. When I can, I zone out from the world with my meds which I know is dangerous, but the pain goes away for a short period. This week my T has me checkin in daily, I don't think I have the nerve to do do anything drastic, but without a purpose why am I here?

[regretful]

I have one son...only one. When I'm feeling very low on the "what's my purpose" scale, I think about him. I certainly wish my wife and I would have had more children, but I remain so grateful for this son of mine. I hope that you can find that same joy. He means even more to me at this time of year because this is when child number two was lost to a miscarriage. Treasure your gifts. I hope that you feel better soon.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by alone in the world

a day of sleep but now wide awake and wondering how to keep the day from spiraling down. feel somewhat stable.

I was going to ask how you were doing today, but you've already answered. "Somewhat stable" -- I'm familiar with that. Does sleep help? Are you able to get good quality sleep?