[(JD)]

am i too depressed to know anything other than suicidal ideation? why does that and depression seem synonomous to me? how am i supposed to let you know how i am without telling you what i think? where are your clouds that you don't know what i want to say? what kind of place says post here for depression and then limit you to what you can say? how can i say anything if i limit my own words? like: like is so horrible i can't care enough to live... um so you know what i am thinnking about and why i want to do you know what. and how this all feels like you know what else and how the whole world can go you know where because i feel so you know so whatevering what. and just why am i even bothering with this when no what even you know whating cares

Please research anything I suggest before believing...

[LadyDragus]

ok..
first off I am confoused. by some of the wording in this post.. I do not understand what..

We do not like talk of sucidal post, for it can trigger others.. So we are not sying you cant say stuff, just do not put
****** i am going to kill me **** or kill me so I can be free *****

Thougts can not be stoped no..
but we can try to help you if you tell or ask us for it..
I will help only if you try to think about what you write before you speak it (type it)

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[(JD)]

gee I did think about what I was writing but tried to edit it... and it became a spoof within itself.

Please research anything I suggest before believing...

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sky}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm sorry you feel so bad. You're not the only one who is frustrated about the new limits on what we can post here either. The main topic that I was searching for a place to discuss when I first came here has been restricted now. Okay, we do need to use some courtesy and common sense, and I have a feeling that some people are taking the limits more literally than they were intended. But it's frustrating isn't it?

Sky, have you ever read any of Viktor Frankl's books? I'm reading Man's Search for Meaning now and I keep thinking of you. If anyone is interested, it is really a good book. The author writes about his experiences as an inmate in the Nazi concentration camps, and about how important it is to find meaning in life and a reason to live.

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>

[(JD)]

Ay, there's the rub eh? find meaning in life... reason to live... purpose. Everyone needs that... I am certifiably one who needs purpose MORE than the average person... so the loss of it all makes my depression more.
My physical disabilities add to the impossibility of ever finding good for me to do. I also had a TBI... the accident caused a severe blow to my head... so my major depression may well be permanent.

I just figured that depression is hand in hand with suicidal ideation... otherwise it "just" the blues... not being able to express it adds to it?

Please research anything I suggest before believing...

[lost_as_always]

did you feed the panther?

there are times when you just have to warn the crowd. take the kitchen knife offered by the kid, and wait for dinner!

[(JD)]

forgot to feed the panther... back from union leave? just ate my first meal in 4 days myself. go figure.

Please research anything I suggest before believing...

[lost_as_always]

i got a feeling you might like a comic i really like you should try to read it, its jhonny the homiacidal manic or JTHM really funny but little bit gross i almost peed my pants the first time i saw it. there are only like 5 or 6 comics. so its not heavy reading. after you read it you will understand when i saw must keep the wall wet. lol the guy who wrote it also does invader zim. just gut busting funny stuff. it might lighten you day a bit. oh invader zim is a cartoon on nick. its for kids but i watch it anyway when i can.

there are times when you just have to warn the crowd. take the kitchen knife offered by the kid, and wait for dinner!

[dexter]

>>jhonny the homiacidal manic or JTHM

heading off topic here but i love that comic and could never remember the name of it. i love invader zim, i have several zim t-shirts and toys including a big plush grrr (wearing the dog suit) grr is so adorable and he's what got me really into the show.

i remembered his name from the earlier comic but couldn't remember the name of the comic itself so thanks for reminding me! I was very surprized wehn he started the nick cartoon, when it was cancelled he said he really didn't enjoy the constraints of a kids cartoon, and i wasn't surprized. even zim had his very dark, very bleak style. i loved when the teacher would appear (can't remember her name) and there was always the sounds of Cicadidaes in the atmosphere.

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
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[lost_as_always]

LETS MAKE BISCUTS i love grrrr he is one of the few things that makes me lol

there are times when you just have to warn the crowd. take the kitchen knife offered by the kid, and wait for dinner!

[dexter]

I think my very favorite was when zim made the homing chip for grrr and installed it to test, took grrr all through the city getting totally lost, and when he was ready to test the homing function grrr couldn't do it, because grrr removed the chip before they left the house.

"Why did you do that?" Zim asked angrily.

Grrr's obvious reply: "To make room for the cupcake!!!"

I love cupcakes too

Zim also had some classic line right after that about being doomed by the evil earther's plot of the sun or something.

I have a little tiny plush grrr hanging from the rearview mirror of my car. sans dog suit so i get to see his cute smile.

dibb makes me laugh too, especially his sister who is the epitome of brooding. Remember when zim altered dibbs dna to render him delicious, and he was hunted down by all the dogs in the neighborhood?

Maybe we should start a zim thread in the "fun things" forum and take this there...

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
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[ariel]

Go to a support group there you can discuss these things and get some help.

-Ariel

Whatever you can do,
Or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic, in it.
-Goethe