depression coming back a few months after it going?

In may I was discharged by my psychiatrist and cpn because I'd been doing so well everyone thought my depression had cleared -including me - after two years. Now I worry it's coming back, I get that teary feeling where I want to cry, I keep being awful and a total cow to my family, I feel exhausted and drained even 5 minutes after waking up, I don't feel like doing anything, I can sob myself to sleep some nights. Could it be coming back? It can't be! My brain is telling me it is, but how can I stop it in it's tracks if it is coming back? How do I stop myself from getting as bad as I was before? My family couldn't cope with it either so I can tell them, I don't want to go back to the doctors I feel so... stupid. How do I no if it's coming back? X

Hi Jess95.....Very sorry to hear that you're suffering again. Actually if you suffer from Major Depressive Disorder (not that you said you did, but from your words it sounds like a possibility).....that's how it tends to work.....with episodes of more severe symptoms usually interspersed with times of more "okay" status, or dysthymia ("lower grade" depression.) Unfortunately there is really no such thing as being completely "cured" of depression And as to how you can know if it's back....if you feel it is, that is the best indicator. No one can know this better than you. Perhaps it might be a good time to reach out to your medical doctor (possibly a psychiatrist) to touch bases and begin to form a treatment plan. Much luck to you ~whimsy ps.....It might also be helpful to do some basic reading about depression. There's sooo much information out there, here and elsewhere on the web, plus many books available.

I don't have much to add, but want to echo what Whimsy said. I think sometimes it's chemical, too....

are you on medication? it can be a chemical inbalance of a sort too, i think, so medication is a way to keep yourself stable...

Oh yes, absolutely....

Thank-you for your relplies! I do worry about that because my psychiatrist used to say that because my depression was for no reason at all. I used to be on prozac, I didnt feel as if it did much but everyone else said they could tell. I went cold turkey on it though in April because I didn't feel as if it did anything, at times I felt as if it made me worse! Other than that just my pill. I had like a few weeks where I thought it was gone occasionally through the time I was being treated aswell. Part of me doesn't want to accept that it could be back, I don't want it to be and I tell myself if I can ignore it then it will go. Plus if my family find out they'll hate it, they didn't deal with it very well last time after they found out from me ending up in hospital for attempted su. They really didn't handle it well, and they were awful to me, they if anything made me worse. I don't know what to do! I don't want it to be back! I'm scared to get in touch because of if they tell me it's back which scares me because I don't want to get like that again! x