feeling like a nobody

It's Friday and I have the blues. feeling lousy about all the things I cant provide for my kids and that just brings on the feelings of not being a productive member of society or a good parent. I feel like my kids have gotten the short end of things because I am a sinleg parent on SSDI. I was so capable of providing alot better when working as a social worker, but now for the past 3 years I am nothing. I just want to escape the dissapointment I feel in myself and sleep it away. tried by taking 3 xanax and and a ambiem but sleep was short and the feelings sre still there. Hate disturbing my T with things like this even though she left it open for a phone session if yesterday session gets out of control. Don't have the energy to do that just want to hide under the blanket and not come out. the bad part is my 13 YO will be home soon and neesd to be fed and will want to talk and I really do not want to be bothered. What kind of parent does that make me? My daughter in NY going to school is having a hard time and wants to come home and I do not want it or feel I could handle it mentally. My daughter in FL who is in med school is trying to use the little money she has to furnish her place and is feeling the stress of school and wants my support, but I can not even support myself emotionally today. Just do not know what to do. The pills are looking real good right now and not the small amount I took earlier.

I am sorry you are feeling bad. You are not alone. Your kids need you no matter what. They are amazingly resilent. Please take care of yourself.

Please phone ur T. or the crisis line or if required the ER at ur local hospital. ((((alone in the world))))

I do understans how you are feeling. Nothing you do makes it better
So what's the point of being here....

The point is this will pass and you'll come out on the other side a wiser person
And a better mom too. If you left now you would miss all those things
You used to dream about for your kids. Watching them become active adults
Watch them grow, get married and have your grandbabies.

Leaving before these events would be terrible. So hang in there. I know you'll feel betterd soon.

Hugs
It will get better.